Previously on Chapter 38
Muichiro gently pulls me close. I bury my face in his chest as he hugs me tightly. I don't wanna be a demon. I don't wanna risk hurting anyone. Will my resolve be strong enough?
-Reassurance-
Y/N P.O.V
After a while, I finally calmed down. Muichiro slowly pulls away from me. I keep my head down, staring at my lap. I sniffled as I still feel tears gathering in both of my eyes.
"Hey..." Muichiro said. I turn my head to look at him. He slowly lift his hands, gently cupping my cheeks. I just stare at him. He smiles softly as he gently wipe the tears from my cheeks with his thumbs. "Everything'll be okay, Y/N. You're not gonna ended up being a monster. You are too kind hearted to be that way..." he said, trying to assure me.
"How can you be so sure?" I asked. He removes his hands from my cheeks as he stares at me. "In the near future or someday. I might not be me anymore. I might turn into a monster far worse than Kibutsuji himself" I said.
"You won't..." he said, shaking his head. I just stare at him. "I mean... aren't you able to resist the urge to hurt Tanjiro? That has to mean something, right? That has to be a sign that you're pure hearted. You're not gonna be a monster, Y/N. You never will be..." he said.
"Muichiro... will you do me a favor?" I asked. He stays silent as he stare at me. I grab his hand in both of mine. "Before I turn into a monster. I want you to kill me..." I said. His eyes widen at what I said.
"You know I can't do that, and I'm sure Tanjiro won't be able to do that either..." he said. The door moves open. We turn our heads to see it's Tanjiro. He's holding a tray in his hands as he stares at the two of us in confusion.
"Did you just mentioned my name, Tokito-Kun? Were you both talking about me?" He asked. My eyes widen at the sight of him. He turns to look at me and smiles softly. "Hey, Y/N..." he said.
"Tanjiro! Are you okay?" I asked. He turn to look at me and smiles. He nods his head as he makes his way over to me. "Thank goodness..." I said, staring at him with a relieved gaze.
"I'm glad you're okay too" he said, smiling softly at me as he gently pat my head. I just smiled at him. "So... I heard my name being mentioned before I entered the room. What was it that you both talked about?" He said, turning to look at the two of us back and forth. I lower my gaze at what he said.
"Y/N is scared that she might turn into a monster. She asked me to kill her before she does" Muichiro said. I hear a gasp coming from Tanjiro. I turn my head to look at Tanjiro to see him staring at me with a horrified look on his face. "Of course... I told her that I won't be able to do such a thing. And I'm sure you can't either..." he said. I turn my head away from them.
I flinched when I feel hands on my shoulders. I turn my head to look at Tanjiro. "Are you crazy?!" He said. I stare at him wide-eyed, startled by his sudden move. "Tokito-Kun is right. I won't be able to do such a thing. Y/N... I can't even begin to imagine the thought of hurting you. And kill you? You're asking for the impossible..." he said.
"Then... I guess I'm gonna have to ask someone else" I said. I move to stand up. "I'm sure either Iguro-San or Shinazugawa-San would be happy to do so..." I said. I was about to take a step outside the room, when hands grabs both of my wrists to stop me. I turn my head to look at them. They pulls me away from the door and stands in my way to stop me from leaving the room.
"No way... ain't no way I'm letting you make such a request to those two" Muichiro said. Tanjiro nods his head, agreeing with what he said. I yank my hands out of their grips.
"Why?? It should be okay, as long as you're not the ones to do it, right?" I said. I stare at the two of them as tears starts to gather in my eyes. "I don't wanna hurt anyone. And I'll certainly would if I turn into a demon. Look at my eye! It's gotten a lot worse" I said, yanking off the eyepatch that covered my demonic eye.
I stare at them with tears streaming down my cheeks. "I don't wanna turn into a monster... and it's getting even harder for me to control my thirst!" I said. I choke out a sob as I try to stop myself from crying. I clenched both of my hands into tight fists. I lift my hand, placing it on my neck as I remember the unbearable thirst.
"I almost hurt you, Tanjiro. I'm not going to wait for things to get a lot worse and I end up hurting more people!" I said. I feel my knees growing numb beneath me. Until they're unable to support my body weight. I feel them buckling as I fall on my knees.
"I... I c-can't. I-I'm scared, o-okay? I d-d-don't w-wanna hurt you b-both or a-anyone" I cried out. I bury my face into my hands as I start to cry again. "Please help me... end me before I hurt someone..." I said. I feel two pairs of arms wrapping themselves around me, embracing me tightly.
"You're never going to be a monster... no matter what happened, you will always be you" Tanjiro said. I lift my head a little and turn to look at him. He gently cup my cheek in his hand, wiping away the tears from my eyes.
"He's right... you'll never turn into a monster" Muichiro joins in. I turn to look at him. He smiles at me and leans his forehead against mine. "Never will..." he said, in a soft voice. I just lower my gaze. Muichiro gently grabs my hand while Tanjiro grabs the other.
"We're here for you, Y/N" Tanjiro said. I turn my head to look at him. He smiles softly at me as he gently gives my hand a squeeze. "We'll be right next to you every steps of the way, Y/N. So, if you ever feel scared, you can come to us and let us know, okay?" He said. I just smile at the two of them. I nod my head lightly.
I wrap my arms around them, pulling them into a tight hug. They wrap their arms around me, embracing me in a group hug. I wish there would be an answer. I don't wanna turn into a monster, and hurt these two. They're so important to me. I won't be able to forgive myself if I do. No matter what it takes, I will do everything in my power to not turn into a monster. What ever it'll take.
*to be continued*
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