Casual // Toga x Ochako ♡

Chapter 10:// Pushing The Blame.

Ochako's POV
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Toga shoulder checked me on her way out in a hurry. At first, I thought it was just her teasing, but her lips were quivering, and she had her arm over her eyes.

"Toga- Hey!" I shouted.

She just kept running.

I spotted her friend Touya followed by Shiggy, and they chased after her. Shiggy stared me down as they passed. There was hatred in his eyes that made my body shake.

What have I done...

Despite my gut telling me to stay with my friends, I took off after Toga. I knew something was terribly off, and I knew it was because of what I said about her...

I was determined, though. I could explain things and make it right between us. Maybe if I could just catch up to her.

I think once she heard three footsteps behind her, she swiveled around to see who it was. I wasn't sure if she knew it was me or not, but when we made eye contact, my heart began to race. She stomped towards me with angry tears running down her face.

"Wait- Toga, I can explain!" I shouted, flinching as we were inches apart now.

She sniffled and wiped her eyes quickly before I could see her tears once again.

"How could you say those things?" She began to mumble, "What did I do to you?"

I felt my throat tighten up as the guilt and shame overcame me.

"I didn't mean what I said -" I tried to say.
She cut me off with a glare, "How many times can you use that as an excuse?"

She got me there. I'm just a lame excuse for a situationship. After this, I'm sure she'll never want to be my girlfriend. I know I've said some horrible things, but that wasn't just my way of trying to keep me really being gay a secret!

"Toga, I'm sorry." Was the only words I knew to say. Whether it comforted her or not, it was the truth. I had never felt more sorry in my life.

Her lip began to quiver again, but before I could comfort her, she turned away.

Touya wrapped his arm around her as they walked away.

"Please forgive me." I shouted shakily, feeling that tightness in my throat as tears slipped from my eyes.

My friend Momo had scoffed. "Ochako, if you really wanted her to forgive you, would you have said all this in the first place?"

I turned towards her, "Why do you think I said all of this in the first place!"

My friends shrugged.

"It's because I couldn't stand the thought of you guys knowing and spreading rumors of me liking her! You guys are the fucking worst friends I could have ever asked for!" I screamed, shaking from the intensity of the stress I had been carrying.

They were quiet, but only a moment before beginning to smirk and laugh.

"If you really liked her, you wouldn't have said that shit about her." Mina protested.

I couldn't handle it, I just had to walk away.

I went home after school that day a complete mess. I knew Toga was also in my shoes, and there was no one to blame but me.

I had just been pushing the blame onto my friends. I'm sure I lost them too.

Jeez...

I decided that night I couldn't just lay in bed feeling sorry for myself. So, I wrote a letter. It was supposed to be short and sweet, but I had a lot of apologizing and explaining to do.

A letter turned into an autobiography at one point. 5 pages long, but at the end, I decided to confess my feelings for Himiko Toga. The girl I loved.

Whether she would forgive me or not, I needed to get it off my chest.

At the end, I decided to lay my feelings out, "From the moment I laid my eyes on you, I thought you were the cutest in the whole wide world. I want to be with you, Himiko. You don't have to forgive me right now, I don't even ask that from you. I just want you to know that these words on this paper are true, I love you."

I quickly left the house around 10:42pm running to the place Toga had led me that night. Through all the alleyways and all the dark roads, I persisted.

I rang the doorbell and waited.

It took a few minutes, but before I knew it, the door had opened-