The long drive has begun.
The calmness of the wind.
The peacefulness of an empty street,
was the opposite of what I felt.
As the speeds picked up,
my hands trembled,
was it the cold?
My heart said otherwise.
As thoughts arise,
the chaos in my mind transpires.
It wasn't the best,
it'll never be the best.
Gripping my necklace
hoping to find solace
didn't do much anything either.
Music is my life,
yet it didn't change anything either.
I was lost.
It was the fear that made me troubled.
My eyes sting,
while I breathe rapidly.
I'm not a religious type
but this time is not right.
My lips mutter on their own,
praying to the Lord,
saints were mentioned
even though it's not my intention.
Past experiences change it all.
Trauma made me fall.
It was indeed a long drive
that my head ended up making scenarios that I didn't like.
I used to love it,
but now I dislike it.
Call me a coward all you want
not that I care anyway.
Life is too short to waste it,
my motto as the ride continues.
