to capture a heart

Hell

Lorenzo Russo

It's been 3 hours since I've seen Vivia. It's felt like years. I was reminiscing all the time with her. How she blushed when I stared at her. Or when she would get upset because her favourite breakfast wasn't on the table. The secret faces she would make towards Christian for being mean to her. And the way she would scrunch her nose when Adrian said stupid things.

For what felt like an eternity the nurse came out smiling "She's awake, I've fed her and gave her some water. She has the strength to talk to you all". Dad, Mama, Adri and Chris jumped up running to the room to her. I could hear the joy in their voices when they spoke to her. "Why don't you go to see her" Fizza questioned me curiously. I shook my head "I want to see her alone, you all can go I'll go last".

They all nodded as they went to the room to talk to her. After an hour they came back and Dad nodded at me signalling for me to go. I got up and slowly turned the door knob. I saw her lying down staring at the walls. I could see her discomfort and hurt and pain all written on her face.

"Hey Vivia" She instantly turned her head to me with a bright look. She didn't speak though. She signalled for me to lie next to her so I did as she said. She hugged my bicep and got comfy. She moaned and grunted in pain as she shifted her body. I played with her hair with my spare hand and kissed her. She looked at me with tears in her eyes and a quivering lip. "Don't cry Vivia I'm here aren't I?"

She nodded at me as she stuffed her face in my bicep hugging it. "I thought I was going to die" her voice was shaky. I took my spare which was playing with her hair to her thighs and made circles on them. "I know Vivia, I'm sorry I didn't take more caution and took that long to find you". I took my hand away from her and placed it around her letting her sleep on my chest.

She sat in silence "I don't want to speak. I have no energy I just want you here with me".
"I'm here Vivia. I'll be here forever" She tilted her head at me smiling and pecked my lips. But I wanted more. I smashed my lips back onto hers as she smiled into the kiss. She broke it and laid back on my chest.

Half an hour passed until Adri Chris re-entered the room. "Hey Vi how u feeling" Adri looked at her with sadness. She smiled at him slightly. "She has no energy to speak". They both looked at me nodding as they sat there. Eventually everyone came into the room. We all sat there telling stories to cheer Vivia up. We sat all night laughing.

It hit 2 am and I lifted Vivia to take her to her room. She laid in bed as the nurse attached the IVs to her. I got into bed with her and stared at her. She stared at the ceiling with nothing but distress on her face. I saw outrage on her face as well. She was easy to read.

Slowly she shut her eyes. She finally looked relaxed. She calmed down. Like when she fell asleep her worries disappeared. I spent that night awake and staring at her. I couldn't risk anything. I let her be hurt once and over my dead fucking body will I allow that again.

Vivian river

I woke up to the nurse staring at me with joy. She got up instantly and brought me water. I kindly refused it due to the throbbing pain across my body. I couldn't handle the amount of cuts and scars across my body. The soreness in my legs killed me and my whole body was stinging. I groaned loudly to see her hand me food. Again I refused.

"You need energy Vivian, eat" she looked at me sternly. I slowly ate and drank some water. Then 300 seconds passed. Yes, I counted each second. I saw my whole family come to me asking how I was. I gave short dry answers. I couldn't remember what I told them, everything was a blur. I just wanted Enzo's warmth right now.

3,720 seconds passed until I laid eyes on the same blue eyes that I drowned in every time I looked at them. As soon as I felt his warmth my body's throbbing left, and the soreness in my legs felt like it was never there the second I felt his circles on my thighs.

He soon took me to my room. The anguish started to override my hurt. I was going to send Roman Sokolov to hell. Whether I was alive doing it, Oh God would I send him to the deepest pits of fucking hell.

I watched how Enzo's eyes trailed my whole body, seeing my wounds and bruises. He placed his hand on my cheek rubbing it, "I'm sorry I wasn't there for you, let this be my promise to you that I'll never let you get hurt."

I gave him a soft smile as a tear fell down my face. I bit my cheek in an attempt to not cry. "I was so scared Enzo. I thought he would rape me." I stumbled across the words seeing his face frown.

"As long as I'm alive Vivia, nobody can touch you. Let alone rape you." I saw how his body tensed as soon as he said the word rape.

I feel as though men's rape isn't talked about enough. It affected my boy so much, he barely could speak about it out of shame. I wonder how other men in the world deal with it. It's not only women. Men do get raped aswell.