to capture a heart

5 years later

Lorenzo Russo.

Love.

Love is a dangerous thing. The precautions of what you say and what you do. The deep feeling of knowing love never lasts. One day we have to let go those who we love.

I used to think that I could never be loved until I met my someone. That was Vivian River. She made me feel complete and fulfilled.

The day she left the world was the day I mentally left aswell. The amount of rampages and rage attacks I went though. I believed the only person who loved me had left the world.

That was all until I realised everyone around me loved me too. Sure it isn't as much as Vivian does, but they still cared.

I know Vivia wouldn't want me to sit here and sink in my own sweat and odour. In fact she would shout at me if she ever caught me in this state. I do still rot in bed some days wondering how different life would've been if she was still with me.

But part of me accepted it. Sometimes we have to let go of those who we love so dearly to save them. I sighed as I grabbed my jacket and wrapped it around myself.

I washed my face and brushed my hair back. I sprayed the cologne that Vivia once told me she adored. I walked out and started to drive to my mafia base.

I looked up at the sign to see the adjusted sign.

The vipers
In loving memory of Vivian River

I smiled to myself as I looked up at the bright pink sky. It was almost as beautiful as Vivian. I started to walk in and watched as people flinched. I turned my head to see a group of boys pressuring a smaller boy.

"Fucking pick on someone your own size you pussy's" I growled as I pushed them all off the little boy.

The boy looked around 9 and he had a couple bruises here and there. I instantly recognised him to be one of the foster boys who ran away to be with us. I'm not sure it was out of his free will though. The boy flinched as he saw me.

"Why do you flinch when you see me?" I questioned curiously.

"B-because you're Lorenzo Russo." He stuttered as he spoke.

"If my wife ever saw you flinch at me she would laugh you know." I started to chuckle to myself.

The boys eyebrows furrowed as he tilted his head "Wife?".

"Let me take you somewhere son, i'll tell you all about her." I guided him back to my car and started to drive towards the local foster home.

We walked in, I saw the boys face light up as he saw his friends run around him. He shrieked as he turned back to me and thanked me.

"Hey, let me tell you guys a story. This one's about an amazing, gorgeous woman who let nobody get in her way." I caught all their attention as they surrounded me sitting.

The kids were about 10 maximum. I sat there for hours talking about Vivian with them. I suddenly got a phone call and instantly picked it up.

"Enzo where are you?" Chris grumbled from the other side.

"At the foster home with the kids." I muttered as I scratched the back of my head.

Chris started to slightly chuckle, "Again? When did you go so soft?"

I sighed loudly as he laughed. I had been at the foster home a lot lately. I guess I just missed my unborn baby, and her mama. I put the phone down and carried on with my story.

I soon left after giving the home a £50 million donation.

I looked back up at the sky, now knowing Mama and Papa were both with Vivia and my child it put me in a sort of ease.

Mama did end up committing suicide because she couldn't handle everything. For 2 years straight the entire family was broken, until I realised Vivia would've hated this.

So I got the family together and started to get to know my nieces and nephews. Now everyone was married and had kids.

I still do have hope that she's out there somewhere.

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I stared at my diary as I grabbed a pen and started to write.

Hey Vivia, It's been 5 years of endless pain. I know you would hate to see me in this state but I just had to write to you again...

"mourning is the price we pay for having the courage to love someone."

"I look for you in everyone, and I feel you everywhere."

"Why did the stars need you more than I did?"

"I've never realised but sometimes home can be a person"

"The deepest pain i've ever felt is your absence."

"A part of me died that day with you."

"I died that day with you, my flesh entombed with grief."

"After you left nothing made sense, it's like the world was ending everyday yet the sun kept rising."

"I miss your warmth and the melody of ur voice."

"I'll forever love and miss you, I hope you're comfortable in the clouds baby."

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In another life Vivian River. It'll be us. But for now I hope you know, that you really know how

to capture a heart.