to capture a heart

Viper's

Lorenzo Russo

After that dinner I went straight home. Kai, Kayden, Colt and Vivia stayed for a while whilst I calmed down at home. I sped home and went straight to my gym. My anxiety flew through the roof as I started to hyperventilate. I started to punch the boxing bag in an attempt to calm down.

"Fuck fuck FUCK" I shouted trying to get my anger out. I started to slow down the speed of the boxing bag which was flying around everywhere. I blasted music which shook the whole room so that I couldn't hear anybody.

I started to run on the treadmill going faster and faster until I was forcing myself to run. I preferred the physical pain so my mind would focus on that instead of the mental pain. My head started to spin but I didn't stop. I couldn't. I wanted to stop but I couldn't.

I heard a slam from the door indicating the guys coming back. I saw Kayden and Vivia at my gym door and Vivia headed straight to me to see how I was. She pressed the emergency button to stop my running. I sat on one of the benches and stared at her dryly. "Are you okay Amore?" she spoke softly as she rubbed my cheek.

I nodded at her before walking away. God, I needed a shower. I heard Colt shout my name to grab my attention but my head was consumed with my mother's words. I tried to get into the shower to get rid of these feelings but I couldn't. I was losing it.

The cold water droplets smashed onto my skin soothing them and numbing my skin. I stood under the water for a while letting my skin absorb everything. I wanted to be so numb that my mental pain would fade. I didn't see any point in going to someone and telling them my problems. They were my problems, not someone else's. I didn't want to be a burden to them as well.

As I got out I saw everyone in my room. Fucking everyone. I stared at them all slowly "Get the fuck out" I scowled. Dad grabbed my arm taking me to my office. Well fuck yeah I just need a therapist right now huh.

"Enzo, How are you feeling?"

I glared at him unamused. How the fuck does he think I'm feeling. My mind started to drift off to Vivia. God, I wanted to just fall asleep in her arms. I craved her touch and her soft voice to tell me how much she loved me. To tell me all about her life with her Nona. I wanted to be loved by her right now.

All my worries would fade once she layed her eyes on me, with her bright smile across her face. I leaned my head on the wall beside me as Dad coughed. "I will kill him Enzo, just trust me." My tongue rolled in my mouth as I started to tense and let go of my hand that was in a fist multiple times.  

"I trusted you once." I scoffed coldly.

Dad sighed softly knowing he let me down. "Enzo even if I die from this I'll be sure he isn't alive." He reassured me as he looked around the room.

He started to grin seeing the writing on my paper. "Vivian huh?" My eyes darted to the paper that had Vivian's name with a heart. I did it when me and her were fighting because I couldn't think about anyone but her. I rolled my eyes and snatched the paper off him before carefully placing it inside a drawer, as he snickered.

We both left the office walking toward the now filled-up living room. We saw everyone progressively getting drunk. It hit 1 am by the time me and Dad walked out. I saw Vivia with a glass of wine in her petite soft hands. She was giggling with Fizza about something. I saw the spare spot next to her and sat next to her. Everyone drank but me.

I wanted to sleep in Vivia's arms whilst she spoke about her day. Vivia turned to me and placed her head on my bicep. She looked up at me grinning with her beautiful smile. Her eyes became smaller as her smile widened. Her teeth were slightly on show.