to capture a heart

crazy

Vivian River

I was pleading for Lorenzo to restore his and my Dad's relationship. The argument was so stupid and I hated myself for not telling them both to stfu before it got worse. "Enzo please." He stared straight ahead not saying a word to me. Kai was munching on his fries in the back watching this all go down.

"Oh my God, Lorenzo Russo if my Dad didn't raise you, you would've been with your deadbeat father. Yes, my Dad said horrible shit and it was so out of touch but he will apologise to you, you're both not fucking children to be doing this." I yelled at him with an angry tone.

He slowly turned to me "Vivian, If a man who you trusted your entire life, a man who you cried to about your parents, a man who saw your past told you he used you as a business deal wouldn't you feel resentment toward them?"

I went silent as I realised my Dad's words were disgusting. "Drive to my house and trust me Enzo, You can leave at any given moment," I spoke softly to him as I rubbed his hand. Kai burped. "Kai shut the fuck up."
Enzo stared at him in disgust and then he turned to me nodding. We drove home, God I'm dreading this.

I opened the door with my keys seeing everyone in the living room. "Hey guys."
Nobody replied and stared at Enzo in shock. "I know I'm sexy no need to stare" Kai smiled.
I furrowed my eyes at him "Nobody is staring at you Kai." He stuck his tongue out to me like a little child as I laughed.

"Hello Enzo." Dad finally spoke up. Lorenzo's eyes didn't depart from me. "Enzo." I spoke in a stern tone warning him to reply.
"Hi." Enzo spoke dryly clearly still holding a grudge.

Dad walked up to him and put a hand on his shoulder. Enzo's jaw tensed as he had an infuriated face written across his face however his eyes still didn't depart mine. He slightly closed his eyes for a couple of seconds before reopening them to calm himself down.

"Come to my office and speak to me, curse at me, take all your anger out on me as long as by the end of this you're calling me Dad again." Enzo was silent and started to scratch his nose thinking. A minute flew by until Lorenzo cleared his throat "Let's go."

They both walked to Dad's office. oh God.

Lorenzo Russo

"Speak" Matteo stared at me waiting for something to come out my mouth yet I couldn't say anything. I was speechless because I still couldn't understand how a man I once called my Dad treated me like he did. "Enzo speak to me." I blinked a few tears back as I recalled his words.

business deal.

if your own mother didn't want you what makes you think my wife will.

I stayed silent. So silent you could hear a fly flying across the room. The buzz was the loudest yet quietest sound in the room. The anguish and pain of us both was filling the room with screams. Every minute of silence spoke louder words than I ever could.

"I'm sorry Lorenzo." Dad spoke up silently. My mouth slightly parted to tell him it was okay but I couldn't. And the worst part was I didn't know why I couldn't. I think it was because I was so obsessed with praying for stuff in the future without realising my Dad gave me the life I prayed for in the past. A family. I ignored the fact that my Dad helped me so much because of the resentment I was holding towards him.

I wanted to be 11-year-old Lorenzo who used to cry in Dad's arms about my Father, Who used to forgive people easily because I was so afraid of hurting others the way I have been hurt.

"It's fine." I muttered to him. Dad came from around his desk and embraced me in a hug. I hugged him back awkwardly knowing that I couldn't get his words out of my head. Knowing his words was a knife to our relationship and started to cut through the line that was holding us together.

I wanted to be like every other son. I wanted to be normal yet I couldn't pick the right words to be one. I couldn't fix the broken glass which led me to be ruthless. I couldn't face my mother knowing how she watched me and abused me. Watching them hurt me all because they were too immature to have children.

And it hurt thinking that I was just a business deal. As if I wasn't human. As if I wasn't just a little boy who wanted to be loved by his mama and papa. I craved that love which is why I couldn't let Vivian go. I attached myself to anyone who would give me an ounce of love until I turned 14 and realised nobody really loves you.

Everyone loves you to help themself. Dad was speaking to me but my brain muffled his voice. A voice was screaming in my head.

Nobody will love you

Nobody will love you

Nobody will love you

Nobody will love you

Nobody will love you

Nobody will love you

Nobody will love you

Nobody will love you

Nobody will love you

Nobody will love you

Nobody will love you

Nobody will love you

Nobody will love you

Dad pushed my shoulder when the voice suddenly faded. "Are you okay Enzo?" I nodded as I gulped breathing heavily. "Take a seat I'll get you water and repeat what I've just said"

I slowly sat down and drank the water I was given. I could hear as my throat gulped each sip. "I know I was in the wrong and I apologise, I didn't mean anything I said and I love you as my own Lorenzo," Dad spoke to me slowly realising I wasn't in the right state.

Lorenzo shut the fuck up *slap* You worthless shit nobody loves you

fuck. I was going crazy.

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I know it might be confusing but to clear it up he was going crazy and his mind was just recalling every single thing. even though none of it related to what was happening at the given moment.