drifted | M.R.

019 | letters

trigger warning: implied suicide, mention of suicide
word count: 900

Belle,
you have saved me countless of times. I believe you will get everything you ever want because that's the girl you are.
You just deserve the world.
And I'm sorry, I left. But it was for the better.
The group was falling apart and I can't be the cause of that anymore.
I love you more than anything.
You're my best friend, my sister, my laughing partner, my shopping partner.
You're everything anyone could ever ask for.
And make sure Lorenzo knows that because I swear I'll come back to haunt him if he you called yourself fat I am you are not please agree with me on this yes she's she's saying that she called her she called it she called whoa she called herself fat so I hit her thank you thank you doesn't.
Take care of yourself, please.
I'll be watching over you from above.
I'll make the sky pretty and I'll be with my little girl.
Don't cry, just know I'm happier.
Love, Brooke Madden<3

Pansy & Daphne,
you were the first friends I ever had.
You helped me believe I could have friends.
You guys showed me what true friendship was and I couldn't thank you guys enough.
You guys helped when my mum and dad didn't want me around and took me in.
It meant and still does mean the world because I don't know where I would be right now if I didn't have a stable home.
And I genuinely don't know how you are still here anyways because Merlin knows you deserve the world.
I will be watching over you guys and making sure no one fucks with you.
Daphne, you are gonna be an absolute amazing mother.
That child is so extremely lucky they don't even get it.
Love, Brooke Madden<3

Lorenzo,
please take care of Belle. And yourself of course.
But I know she's gonna need some help. I tried telling her to take care of herself but I know she'll be worried about everyone else.
She thinks if she doesn't acknowledge her feelings, then they don't exist.
Take care of yourself too.
You have always been there for me and I couldn't thank you enough.
Especially when I wanted the comfort of Mattheo and you held me for as long as I needed.
It will forever mean everything to me.
I'm gonna watch over you and protect you.
I pinky promise.
Love, Brooke Madden<3

Theodore,
I know you didn't check on me because you were with Mattheo more.
And thank you.
Because I was worried no one was checking on him.
It means a lot more to me than you know or could even understand.
I'm not mad you didn't talk to me often, I'm glad it was spent with Mattheo.
Keep making sure he's okay.
Make sure you're taking care of yourself.
Thank you so fucking much.
I can't say it enough lol.
Hug him while he cries and let him know it's okay to cry.
Cry to him to.
Don't hold it in, please.
If there is anything I ask of you, don't hold how you are feeling in.
Love, Brooke Madden<3

Draco,
you have always been like my brother.
I was raised by you and Belle for as long as I can remember.
Even if I didn't technically live with you, I felt like I was being raised by people my age.
You were always so protective of me, it usually made me laugh.
I'm so sorry I did it again.
I'm so sorry.
But I couldn't continue.
The pain was so bad.
I just wanted it to end.
I hope you didn't find me again because if you did that's gonna kill me even more.
Take care of yourself.
You're gonna be a great father.
Daphne and the baby are extremely lucky, I promise.
I know you are overthinking and overwhelmed by it.
I'm watching over you and protecting your little family, I promise.
Love, Brooke Madden<3

Mattheo,
I'm so sorry, my love.
You deserve the stars and the moon and I couldn't give them to you, instead I took it away.
I am so sorry.
I'll be with Mila, I'll be protecting her and you love.
This is the hardest letter to write. By far.
I couldn't handle it anymore and I wish I could've.
Please be careful, don't do anything stupid.
Talk to someone. Absolutely anyone.
Just don't shut down because it killed me when you did that to me.
I love you more than the whole world my love.
And I know it's wrong of me to finally want you after you left but I really only wanted you.
I just wanted you to hold me and I know that's so fucked.
Please move on.
Find a woman that loves you and you love her. Have a kid.
Don't eat what I did stop you from living your life because you deserve to live life.
I know you're probably gonna feel like it's your fault but I promise it's not.
I just couldn't handle it anymore.
It was my only way to escape it.
If you don't wanna open up to anyone, at least open up to Theodore.
For me.
I love you so much I don't think you could possibly understand.
Love, Brooke Madden..<3