Taylor's Pov
"Abbs he is seriously the cutest baby ever." I gushed over my nephew.
"I know I can't stop obsessing very his chubby little cheek." Abigale sighed flipping the camera back to her. "Still can't believe I'm a mom."
"I can't believe were old enough to be moms." I countered.
"Yeah." She paused for a moment looking down at Bennet. "So, when are you and Mr. football man gonna have a baby?" She asked making me choke on air. "What? You two have been together for a year now which I know isn't technically a lot but you're always talking about marriage. And face it Tay we both aren't getting younger and as much as it sucks, we are on a biological clock, and I know you want at least two kids so your gonna have to start soon."
I bit my lip as Abigale talked, I knew she was right, and I would be lying if I said hadn't been thinking about it a lot to. "But I don't have the time, I'm still doing a world tour right now and I already have projects lined up for when it's finished I just-" I sighed dropping my head into my hands. "I don't know. It's just not the right time."
"It's never the right time." She said softly.
I just shrugged. I always tried to avoid this topic in my head knowing it usually sends me into a spiral.
"But you do want a baby?"
I hesitated for a moment before nodding. "Yeah, yeah I really do." I admitted out loud for the first time. "Fuck Abby I want a baby." I let out a wet laugh.
"Hey no don't cry." Abigale laughed giving me a sympathetic look.
"I don't know why I'm crying." I tried to laugh but I turned into a sob.
"Kind of a scary thing to realize huh."
"Mmhm." I sniffled trying my best to erase the tears that had fallen from my eyes. "I don't know what I'm gonna do though."
"I'll tell you what you could." Abigale started making my attention snap to my phone. "First of all, you're going to sit down with Travis at some point and just lay it all out. Make sure he's on the same page as you. And then you've got an entire month off to just see what happens." I went to interject but Abigale held her hand up giving me a look. "Let me finish. If you do get pregnant you would only have like three months of the tour left so it should be pretty easy to deal with." She reasoned, my head pounding with the idea. "And I'm sure whatever plans you have for after the tour wouldn't be completely affected by you having a baby and if they are then you can push them back."
I didn't speak for a while as I brought everything into consideration. Logically this was a dumb idea, but my heart wanted nothing more to be a mother and it was quickly overruling any logical thinking.
"I'll let you go so you can think about it, but seriously Tay talk to Travis about it. Even if you don't start trying for a while it's good to at least let him know how you're feeling."
"Yeah, yeah I think will." I cleared my throat. "Thanks Abbs."
"Any time babes."
"I should probably go track Travis down."
"Yes you should." She agreed. She shuffled around a little propping the phone up and picked up little Bennet. "Say bye bye Auntie Tay bye bye." Abigail held up her son's little hand so he could wave at the camera.
"Bye bye Bennet." I waved at my phone while using my baby voice. "Bye Abby love you."
The call ended leaving me staring at my reflection in the black screen. I didn't know what to think. On one hand I truly did want a baby, I yearned to have a little version of Travis and I toddling around the house while babbling on about who knows what. But on the other hand, my career just wasn't made for a child. I'm always working or traveling I can't even step outside for five seconds without ten cameras capturing my every move. How am I expected to bring a kid into that. Kind of ironic how two of the things I've wanted most in life don't work out well together.
