Sticks and Stones: The Love I Could Never Have

Chapter 1: The Start Of Eternal Suffering

Ame walks down to the bus stop with Nikita,Hisaki and Shizue. "Oh hey Ame how ya doin'," Hisaka shouted. Ame couldn't respond because he'd already had a tough day yesterday with bullying and with the stress of trying to ask Nikita out. "Oh not much, just trying to not feel depressed, trying to make sense of where it is I want to go in my life." Ame was depressed he could tell whether or not his life was good or terrible, he knows Nikita rejected him,even if she said don't think of it as a rejection. "Ame can I speak to you in private please?"Nikita asked gracefully "Sure what is it, if you're trying to say sorry it won't work, I already know that you don't love me." "That's not what I wanted to talk about though." Ame decided to talk to her anyways in private. "Why,why do you say you give up, is it because of me it's not my fault I'm not into you; I want you to be happy is all, are you not happy?"

"Just drop the topic Nikita!, drop it now, I don't want to talk about it, you don't know how long I was waiting to go out with you, especially after the incidences with Shizue, you never even asked me why I decided to give up, you just agreed with me and even said we were never going to go out and you choose now to ask me why?" Ame can't comprehend why, she chose to ask why when school started rather then looking at text messages sure it would have been good to talk in person. "You didn't tell me in time, you made me give up you didn't even know how I felt," "I could've left you alone but no; I decided to go after you cause I saw potential in you." Ame was angry and depressed at the same time. "but, Ame." "Didn't you hear what I said, drop the topic!" "I don't wanna hear anymore, you've already rejected me, whats next a super rejection."

"Ame it's not that, I just don't feel the same way towards you, I'm sure you'll find someone for you but, I don't want you to give up either." Nikita didn't understand why Ame was upset, Ame was very upset because he'd been told there would be a chance to then being told there was no chance. "Just forget it Nikita, I just don't deserve someone like you; I've been to much of a douche and to much of a burden to you Nikita." "Don't say stuff like that Ame, you're no burden to me I just don't think I'm ready yet and I don't want to ruin our current relationship; I mean you're fourteen and I'm thirteen you see there's just no reason to date yet." "Forget it, we never had this conversation, you should've listened to my texts earlier before talking to me about them at school, I don't want to talk right now just let me be for now, we'll talk later."

Ame walked back to the bus stop nearly in tears from what he said and what Nikita said as well, he always gets upset when he can't admit that he needs to move on. "So what did you and Nikita talk about?" Shizue said. "Oh nothing, nothing really I just don't wanna talk about it lets just say things happened." Shizue knew something was off because Ame is never like this. "Ame tell me what happened, tell me I need to know if you won't tell me I'll ask Nikita what happened." A single tear fell down his eye because he knew if he told her he'd have a shoulder to cry on. "Fine Shizue, we talked about her rejecting me, about what's been happening over the summer, how I yelled at her when she brought the topic up again; can you please, please help me Shizue." "Well I'm not much for when it's relationship advice but, if you want my opinion you two should be able to go out you are compatible for each other but, she doesn't see that for some reason don't give up she is your dream after all."

Ame was struck with a moment that made him realise it's not so simple to get her to be his Girlfriend it would be a difficult thing to do. "All I can think of is the lie I was told, told there would be a chance to there not being a chance whatsoever, do you know how hard that feels Shizue, I know she's going to be one of the best things in my life but also something terrible; I can just tell it'll be terrible as well getting one person to like you." "Don't give up no matter what, if you can't get her to, I will get her to love you the way you do." "It hurts in here though, in my heart and it makes me feel all weird sad, yet happy." Ame realised he was feeling the emotion of being lovesick and he was forever in doubt that Nikita would ever, ever go out with a fool like him.