Have you ever got everything you've ever wanted ?
no, but i once got really close.
I have never wanted to be in love
I honestly didn't find it possible
some would say I have high standards
I like to call it self respect
but you threw every bit of that out the door the first time we spoke
I wanted you to be the one i married
I never wanted kids but I wanted to have yours
The idea of more you in the world brought so much joy
I wanted you so badly I threw away all my plans, all of that for a boy
I wanted us to do whatever you wanted
I never have wanted to stay in this town
But there I was ready to settle down
I never wanted to be a traditional wife
But hey I could see me in the kitchen with a knife
I needed you to hold me in my darkest moments
But I realized you couldn't because you were always asleep
I needed you to be understanding on my bad days
But I forgot good girl friends only give 100% even when they receive 0
I tried so hard to hold on
I tried for months to talk myself out of it
I defended you to no end when there was nothing to save your reputation
I once got so so close to everything I wanted
I hate so badly that you didn't want to be what I needed
I hope you find the girl that's worth it
I'm never the test but i'm always the lesson
