"What do you want to be when you grow up?"
"I want to become a singer."
Walk aside Lee Minho as he undergoes hardships and daily struggles during his trainee days.
Credits to original artists/image owners
Enjoy!
I have no idea what time it is. Probably some 2-3 AM? I'm not sure.
My eyes are still a bit puffed, a bit of help from spoons should do the trick. (Keeping two spoons on your eyes helps reduce the redness)
After returning to the dorm after receiving the results, I tried hard not to weep in front of the others. I was successful, but only for a short period. I had trouble sleeping last night because my entire nose was stuffed. I hid this from Hyung as well.
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There's something cool which happened a while ago, did I mention?
We filmed Hellevator! We filmed it in an abandoned but beautiful place, atleast it was abandoned until we came-
Anyways, it felt funny to put on makeup for the first time (not that I am against it or anything). Everyone looked stunning. Our appearances and outfits really suited the personality of the song as a whole.
Here's a photo I managed to get:
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(That's Hyunjin btw)
All of this is for another time. (Lmk if you want a tiny chapter for this!)
Anyways, keeping that aside, I still needed to save myself from the elimination.
Luckily, since JYP had still given us 3 a chance to redeem ourselves, we were grouped as 3s (one had 2) and gave us 2 days to create another song, with the choreographies (all of which, we had already done) each GroupWise.
Now, of course, they couldn't show us suffer for so long, so they sent us off to 3 separate places to cool off the next day. Me, Changbin, and Felix as a group headed to the park to 'relax' with cameras up our faces. I felt bad for Changbin and Felix, as they had to do a dare where one kissed the other on the cheek. I don't know if they were actually fine with it or not, because Binnie definitely looked super uncomfortable doing it.
Anyways, the others went to the karaoke and the bowling arena. Personally, I don't want to be bothered by what the others even did, all I have in my mind is about the elimination. I do not want to be in the final 3. I'm doing everything in my power to stay far, far away from those spots.
Speaking of the project we three have, Changbin has really supported me in learning rap. I have been given training previously, but not to the point where I have to actually use it. Felix's been doing it too, with my English pronunciation and everything else in general. They're prioritizing me instead of themselves. I feel grateful and guilty at the same time.
Exactly why, waking up late at night is the perfect time to let your tears out. Everyone needs a break. The best solution is to vent to someone. But unfortunately, everyone's too busy to help out, and I don't wish to share my thoughts with anyone. Writing thoughts in a diary has proved to also help a lot, according to research done by ME.
It's been so long since I've shown my goofy side. Sometimes I read my old entries. Not much to read through, but they show so many memories. It definitely lifts my spirit now and then. Sometimes, I miss it. I don't want to grow older.
Anyways, Hyung was naturally awake and he told me to get to sleep. I just can't stop thinking about it though, what if PDnim doesn't like our performance? What if he thinks I'm not perfect to be here? I'll be finding out sooner than later. In just a few hours :)
I'm not going to get eliminated, I've tried so much. Calm down Minho, calm down. Calm down...
~LM
something's wrong with my update schedule.
I had ramen at 1:30 AM today. Best thing ever.
Drink water you clown >:(
Okay idk who read the old version but like ignore that I made a few changes :)
