The Romance Of Mr Perfect •|SS|•

Chapter 10 : ignorance and insecurities.

Seokmin kept thinking about Minghao's words. He knew he can't neglect Joshua for so long, the elder will stop caring about him if he still showed this behaviour.

Seokmin frowned. He was getting love which he wanted but still scared to accept it. Joshua was trying to enter in the deepest corner of heart but Seokmin's wall was very strong. He didn't know where to start.

Was he really good enough for older??
Seokmin's anxiety gnawed him continuously, he wasn't sure about anything anymore. He felt that with elder, he wasn't able to focus. Focus one being someone he is not.

In his memories, the voices of his family kept echoing. He hated those voice. He hated that he let the voices control him in a way which is totally Absurd. He wanted to break the invisible shackles but at the end, he was pulled in the darkness without mercy.

"Look, What your mother got after throwing such a big tantrum.?? She kept asking for divorce and making big issue out of nothing. In the end while living such a simple life, she lost it." Seokmin wanted to laugh at that, indeed his mother wasn't that rich like his father but she still raised him selflessly, with no demand of a better future.

He was afraid that one day, he will let his guard down and Joshua will not be what he shows. His father's public image was astonishing and everytime he saw Joshua, he was afraid.

At this point Seokmin didn't have only one memories but countless, in each of them his father's harsh words showed a cruel reality. Even they were harsh, he saw those things happening in real. No one was trustworthy, he himself wasn't— how can he trust Joshua blindly?? All he could do was play the role of perfect husband and don't let Joshua down.

He knew he won't let Joshua break him in a way his father did.

Seokmin sighed, Minghao's wise words were once again pushed back and locked in the deep corner of his brain. The reality was always painful, he can't imagine Joshua being his Knight in shining armour, that was ridiculous. All the fairytales had happy ending but he can't expect one for himself, it was impossible.

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The week passed in no time, Seokmin was out of City. He kept himself with work as much as possible, the wedding's responsibility was left on his family's shoulder. Joshua messaged him once or twice asking about his suggestions but he replied plainly— "you can choose, I'm fine with anything." And Joshua was left disheartened once again.

Seeing Seokmin's ignorance towards this important matter, he felt ridiculous. He was growing impatient because of Younger's attitude, In the end he threw this matter in the hand of his own family, Not wanting to do anything without Seokmin. He was also stubborn.

The most hilarious thing was, Seokmin was coming back on the wedding day, not a day before or after—just exact the wedding day.

"He should just permanently shift there." Joshua scoffed, Seokmin was surely testing his patience.

"Calm down, it's not that he is doing anything wrong. He is just busy." Jeonghan sighed.

"We all are Hannie but we make time for things which are important, at this point I'm feeling like I'm alone." Joshua said.

Jeonghan remained silent, he squeezed Joshua's shoulder gently and gave a silent comfort. It was becoming more hard.

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At Seokmin's side.

He ignored the non stop Notification which kept popping on his phone, The more he tried to focus on work, the more he couldn't. All he could see was darkness in front of him, it was enveloping him slowly. He was guilty for crushing Joshua's hope yet he was too scared to follow his heart.

His friend— Minghao and cousins kept telling him that Joshua was different.
He didn't know what to feel.

With a tired sigh, he closed the laptop and then walked towards the Balcony.
The Cold Breeze hit him, washing way some of the stress. He pinched the Space between his eyebrows lightly, it was really hard for him but ignoring Joshua wasn't a good idea.

He took out his phone and finally opened the Chat Section of him with Minghao, the Younger by few months kept Sending him Candid pictures of Joshua and giving small headline about what is happening in his Future husband's life. He smiled when He saw Joshua smiling but frowned when he saw Joshua looking so serious and Intimidating, the Little statement made him Chuckle. Minghao was surely drama Queen.

"Joshua Hyung, almost fired Two employees. Boii come and get your husband back to your home."

That was one where he saw Joshua Looking very serious and Annoyed.

Then he Scrolled to see another and then another.

After a lot of thoughts he finally decided to reply.

                       Drama Queen

Seokmin: at this rate you can pass to be a Stalker.

Minghao's reply was almost instant like he was waiting for it only.

Minghao: be grateful you bitch— and even if I was stalker i wouldn't work for someone like you.

Seokmin: you are already doing. Well thanks for it.

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Seokmin was instantly recharged after finding that Joshua was doing good even his mood swings was quite scary, the poor employee had to face it instead.
He pitied them for a while before moving back to work, Though again he couldn't work. His thoughts were totally occupied by Joshua. He was wishing to see him more than anything, Seokmin didn't let his intrusive thoughts win over him anywhere but tonight it seemed impossible.

Before he could even Understand, he had already dialed the familiar number and the his heart stopped beating. It was past midnight, very well Seokmin.
As the ring went, he felt more nervous with time. After all ignorance he was calling him now.?? Seokmin was really Wishing for instant death. He almost decided to cut the call but the another person picked call at that time and greeted him with nothing good.

Seokmin froze as he heard the Annoyance in Joshua's voice, the drowsy voice was Surely something he can wear for this rest of his life even the content weren't something good.

"You bitch— don't tell me you called me in middle of night to tell about your break up or new boyfriend you got?? Jeonghan i will kill you." Seokmin pressed his lips, so Joshua thought it was Jeonghan and not him.

He pondered but Joshua kept cursing his dear friend in most Sarcastic way, He wanted it to be over already but Joshua seemed to be Not buying it.
He took a mental Note "never provoke your future husband."

After the Line from Joshua's side went silence, Seokmin took a deep breathe and finally spoke.

"Hyung, it's me. Seokmin." And that was enough for Joshua— the call ended without any other words, Seokmin could only hear the Beeping of his phone, he looked at the screen in disbelief.

"Did he just Hung up on me??" Seokmin was in daze, he was about to text but Joshua best it to him and His Phone Started ringing once again.

Seokmin smiled Lightly. Joshua wasn't turning his back or maybe— he called to give an earful to him as well. Seokmin was scared but still Picked up the call.

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