Unfading Scars #1 ; River & Bill

Chapter XIV : Day 3

River .

         Today's session was shorter than usual since Melody claimed to be having some headache and I got some free time that I decided to take a lunch over the nearby Restaurant .

Ordered my favorite smooth wanting to soothe my throat as my thoughts went back to what Melody and I discussed today . Melody questioned me about how I lost my child and I ended up in sobs , I guess I am still uncomfortable to explain what happened that day , then she'd ask me of what if I were in Bill's shoes would i forgive me and I dazed on zone because I believed I would have never done that to Bill .

As my thoughts opened the chapters of sessions I've had with Melody , a man came to sit beside me at my table and I wanted to know the invader , only to see it was Liam Heron , my first love and crush since high school .

" Ooh my god " I exclaimed as he smiled .

" How I've missed seeing this pretty face " he joked as usual with those two holes on the sides of his cheek , he looked so hot .

" I thought you were dead  " I joked with him back and let's say that my first joke whenever he would throw his and he would always pout at it just like now .

" That's rude of you princess " he'd always answer just like he did and we both went out laughing .

Liam ordered his food and we both went on story mode ,reminding ourselves of the days back at school ,how in love we were only to know that it was just a crush and how girls would swoon all over him for his handsomeness .

We then talked about the where about os some few friends we had back then and sadly I know nothing about what and where my crew was ever since we'd separated at high school that was it but Liam knew of more than ten people's location and what they were doing .

I was happy hearing some of them achieving their dreams and others in progress but got sad for the two of our class mate who died in a car crush ,I've never gotten such news .

After the lunch ,Liam offered to drive me home and I excused myself going to the office and he offered his business card for some communication.

I drove at the company to see how things are going after missing four  days .

Gracie sighed on seeing me and with no waste of time she bombarded me with deals to be cracked and meetings that I've missed and that am supposed to attend . I listened to them all and thanked for she did my part when I was away .

After some time of sorting out the pile of files in my table a phone chimmes in and I picked .

" Ma'am Mr. Norman wants to see you "

" Let him in " and I went in with works .

Few minutes Bill walked right in and I stopped what I was doing ,wanting to seriously have a talk with him .

" How are you doing sweetheart ? " He spoke taking a seat on the farthest sofa from my desk .

" I'd not call me that after you decided to give that name to another person "

" And am going to take very jab you throw at me because I deserve it ,I made mistakes and am going to prove it to you that am sorry and I can be a better man "

" Cheating is a choice Bill , a decision after some analysis ,you don't cheat out of blue " I spoke eyeing his shamed eyes .

" Why are you here Bill ? " I asked after a minute silence from him .

" Am here to beg you for dinner tonight,please  " he spoke slowly and organized that I'd missed the desperate in his voice but I noted that .

" Am occupied ,someone has booked me for the same tonight " he gulped them nodded .

" Then tomorrow night "

" Am fully booked this whole week maybe next week Bill "

" I will wait just tell me when I can get a chance ....I will wait " his voice sounded painful and strained and I knew where it comes from .

Bill has always been a jealousy man ,overprotective and selfish when it comes to me ,so hearing that I will be going out themis whole week out with men it surely kills his inside .

" And Bill when are you going to sign the divorce " I asked him to see how tense he got .

" I still got ten days River ....please wait "

Bill is not a man to beg even less say please but he'd say that twice .

" Okay take your time and mind you I don't want anything from you ...just a divorce "

He nodded .

" Is there something else you want to say "  He nods again .

" Am so sorry for how I acted that night ,I should have known my limits and not charm or force you into anything ....it won't be happening again " .

" It shouldn't ...now if you'd excuse me am busy " .

He stood and composed himself then slowly walked to the door and spoke before he walked out .

" Please take care of yourself , I love you River "

I love you River

I love you ,my wife

I love you princess

I love you Bear

Didn't know I missed hearing that until he spoke , tears welled up in my eyes and I asked myself .

Why Bill ,why throw away the four years of love over some lousy comfort .

And I cried after he left ,

Sorry was not enough to convince or make me forgot what I saw on those pictures or hearing his confession .

Nothing was good enough to make me forget or blind me of the things he'd done ,it was not enough .

And all I want now is just to stay far away from him , I want to be away from the man I love ,I want to forget everything about him , I want to start again and find a new chance to love or be loved but not with the same man.