80s Bandom One-shots 2

Pain (Vinikki)

~warnings: drugs, suicide~

~Nikki Sixx POV~

Ugh, I've been holding up this wall for so long, a wall I don't want to let down anytime soon. My feelings for Vince, I can't just break apart him and Razzle. But maybe my time will come, sometime. Whenever the fuck that'll be. "Oi what are you doing in my house." I crossed my arms looking at Doc. "Just dropping off your mail, bitch." He said as he walked out of the house slamming the door as I scoffed.

I grabbed one of the bent spoons from the drawer as I trudged up to my room, I needed it more than I could express. After I shot up I laid there, half asleep as my eyelids drooped. The phone started to ring as I grumbled and crawled to it as I punched it to shut it up. It was a voicemail from Vince as I threw the phone against the wall. 

The printer started printing something as I growled and crumpled it not even bothering to read it. Fuck off, fuck off just fuck off! Leave me alone! I trudged towards the bedside drawer as I grabbed the notebook from it and wrote a suicide letter to the boys. "I'm just gonna fucking do it at this point." I told myself as I mailed the letters off and lumbered towards the bridge. 

I was limping at this point but I didn't care, sure there was blood dripping down my arm but did I care? Not in the slightest bit. Many people tried to stop me but I kept walking, limping, whatever you want to call it. I couldn't take this anymore. "LOOK OUT!" I heard someone yell as they pushed me away as the car hit them. 

I felt my life flash before my eyes as I realized it was Razzle, holy fucking shit he just saved my life. "RAZ!" I yelled crawling to him as he was bleeding badly. "Oh my god! I didn't see you there!" The driver said as I held Razzle, he coughed and looked at me. "Nikki...take care of Vince for me-" He said as I caressed his face.

"Please, don't go." I said as he laughed a bit before coughing as he took his final breath. I cried harder than I ever have. "Sir are you ok?" The paramedic asked referring to the blood on my clothes. "It's not mine." I said as he frowned and sat next to me. "Do you know his family?" He asked as I looked at him. "Vince Neil. Here." I said handing him his house phone number I kept on a piece of paper.

It had everyone's, I tend to forget so I write it down and keep it with me. He looked at me and shook his head, "No answer." He said as I sighed. "I know why, they're at the bridge waiting for me probably." I said as he looked at the cop. "Call psych." He said as I immediately got up. "Uhm no thanks. I'm gonna go." I said as he grabbed my arm. "Sir you can't." He said as I looked at him up and down.

"I'm Nikki fucking Sixx, I'll do what I want." I said getting out of his grasp as I walked towards the bridge, they weren't there. None of them were. Typical, so fucking typical. I went back to my house as I got on my motorcycle and went to Vince's house. No cars, no bikes nothing. "Fucks sake!" I said driving to Mick's, nothing. Then Tommy's, nothing but Heather's car. "Maybe she knows." I said going up to the door and knocking.

"Hey Nikki. What are you doing here?" She asked as she had Dylan on her hip. "Have you seen Tommy?" I asked as she stopped to think. "I think he said him and the boys were going to a bar downtown." She said as I nodded. "Thanks." I said leaving and going to the bar where I saw their motorcycles. I rushed inside as I saw Mick flirting with some guy, Vince. I need to find Vince.

"There!" I said running to him as I had to catch my breath, he looked extremely confused. "Razzle!" I said through pants as he looked confused. "What about him?" Vince asked as I caught my breath. "I was going to the bridge- and I didn't see the car coming and he jumped in front of the car, pushed me out of the way!" I said as I could see the color drain from his face.

"Did he...?" He asked as I nodded. He fell crying as I caught him. I held onto him as he cried and everyone started to stare. "Fuck off!" I said as they all looked away. "Vince..." I said lifting his chin as his eyes were red and puffy. I gently pressed my lips to his as I felt more tears falling from his face as he wrapped his arms around me, putting what little strength he had left into the kiss.

"I love you Vince..." I said letting that wall down, the wall I never wanted to. He cried harder as he held onto me. "I loved Razzle...more than anyone...I'm sorry Nikki-" He said as my heart shattered, I pushed him off and stormed out, getting onto my bike as I sped off. I tried to stop at the stop light but I was going too fast. I don't remember anything...

~Vince Neil POV~

"NIKKI!" I yelled as I ran to him, he crashed. Fuck I can't lose two people in one day. "GET AN AMBULANCE!" Tommy yelled as Mick and Susie were behind him, Susie is Mick's sister and she goes everywhere with him. "Move!" Susie said pushing me aside as she grabbed some gauze from her bag and started to patch up Nikki's wounds.

She's a surgeon, a general surgeon. 

~At the hospital~

I paced around as Susie came out as she took her mask off. "He's stable, and he'll be awake soon." She said as I hugged her not caring about the blood anymore. "Thank you...Thank you!" I said as she smiled. "You're welcome." She said as I cried. I almost lost two people in one day. 

"Nikki..." I said walking into the room as he scoffed. "Go the fuck away." He said as I frowned. "Nikki...." I said as I walked towards him and grabbed his face as I smashed our lips together as he was shocked but kissed back, wrapping his arms around me as I moaned softly. "Fuck, Nikki. I'm sorry. I love you-" I said as he smiled. "I love your dumbass too~"

~Pain~