Because of you

chapter 7

Trembling legs, blurry eyes while panting heavily couldn't stop the poor girl from running away. She was ashamed of her actions even though it was not entirely her fault but to others it looked like she was the villian. Beside this she was scared of something. All the time she was struggling to accept her feelings and suddenly being faced with it, felt so rushed.

Also after knowing that Suzie was there and she might have heard it all. Her one and only friendship was in risk now. She was literally shaking in fear by the thought of facing her own feelings and Suzie's questions.

Tears were falling down her cheeks and she kept wiping them off roughly but it didn't stopped. Soon she realised that even the clouds were crying with her. The windy and rainy weather was clearly portraiting her inner thoughts.

She kept walking until she saw a bus stand and went there to sat down while covering her face sobbing quietly.

“How can I be like this? I thought I was into boys then why am I having feelings for a girl? It's wrong isn't?”

Gracy was questioning her continuously somehow being ashamed of herself.

“She could have known by now. That girl was crazy she definitely have told everyone.”

Gracy murmured to herself feeling scared that Suzie will now think very low of her. Even the whole college will make fun of her but it doesn't bothered her much as she was ready to be hated by everyone but just not Suzie.

“I can't lose her.. please don't hate me p-please don't hate me-” Gracy pathetically pleaded.

She wished to erase her feelings and start a new beginning with her but she feared that everytime she might fall in love again.

That thought made her burst out crying feeling helpless..

“Gracy!!! What are you doing here? It's raining!!”

A voice echoes in her ears. She turned around fixing her blured eyes and saw Suzie running towards her..

“Why are you crying? What happened!!”

She sounded very pissed and worried. Seeing her red puffed eyes Suzie softly wiped her tears and held her hands. While Gracy was confused that Suzie didn't act the way she should after knowing what happened.

“D-Did you hear everything?” Gracy voice cracked as she spoke nervously.

“No! what was I supposed to hear? When I came towards the crowd you were standing and that girl was laughing. What happened can you tell me!!” Suzie asked eagerly.

Hearing her say this made Gracy relieved that she didn't know anything..

She smiled through the pain and started convincing herself that her feelings are nothing, it doesn't matter anymore.

“Oh yeah it's nothing she was lying. It's not true I don't feel like that.” Gracy said.

“What you're saying? I'm confused!” Suzie got mad cause she was talking nonsense, testing her patience..

“Oh sorry umm actually she was talking bad about you and crossed her limit so um I don't know what happened to me I pushed her and she was laughing all of a sudden I.. I just ruined the party i-” Gracy explained feeling guilty.

“You pushed her! You? Who hardly speak.”

Suzie giggles not believing while Gracy side eyes her confused that even in a situation like this Suzie have something to laugh about.

“It's not funny. She was really giving me bad vibes.” Gracy said being serious.

“I know but you're pushing her is beyond belief hehe. Anyway you didn't ruin the party everyone went back to normal so don't cry and don't blame yourself it's her fault you were right on you spot!” Suzie encouraged.