Secret and Lies (completed)

PART 55

MIKHA'S POV

"Mikha, Can we talk?" Aiah said with an almost shaky voice.

Lahat ng scenario ng nangyari sa amin ay bigla nagpakita sa isip ko. Those hurtful words na nanggaling sa kanya, The words na nagbibigay sa akin ng nightmares, echoed in my ear. I was verge of having a panic attack as I recall that hurtful memories when i felt her warm presence beside me.

Tinignan ko naman siya, Worry, pain, and sadness are visible at my eyes which alam kong napansin niya because i saw how her breath hitched.

"Ano ang kailangan mo?" I asked, trying my best to show that I'm strong.

Hindi naman sumagot si aiah, iniwas niya ang mga tingin niya sa akin at tinignan ang kanyang fidgeting fingers. Silence filled the atmosphere ng mga ilang minuto until i decided to break the ice.

"You know what? If mag sasabi ka ulit ng mga hurtful words mo, Please stop. I've already heard enough" I said.

"No!" Aiah pitch went high na kinagulat naming dalawa. Huminga muna siya ng malalim bago pa siya mag salita ulit.

"I won't say another shit words again" Aiah said in a low and vulnerable voice. I felt my heart soften at the tone of her voice. Siya talaga ang kahinaan ko.

"Then ano ba ang gusto mong pag usapan natin?" I asked calmly.

"Gusto ko lang naman..." Aiah paused and faced me. I saw fear and regret sa mga magaganda niyang mata.

"Gusto ko lang naman mag-apologize for everything I've done, for everything that i've said." She added which made me to widen my eyes on her.

"P-pardon?"

"Alam kong nagstart ang pagha-hate ko sa mga gays nung umalis si mom sa amin pero hindi ko alam na yung pagha-hate ko will be the key to hurt and lose the person who never left my side. Tama ang friends natin na not all gays are like my mom at hindi lahat ng gays ay sasaktan din ako. Hindi ka naman gumawa ng masama para saktan mo ako which is I didn't see before because I was blinded with my hatred and anger. Nasaktan ko yung taong walang ibang ginawa sa akin kundi tanggapin ako kung sino man ako." Aiah said. Nakatingin lang ako sa kanya at hindi ko alam kung paano ako sasagot.

"Hindi ko alam kung late na ako but I still want to apologize to you mikha. You're my best friend, well we used to because i pushed you away which is the thing that i regret the most. Kung hate mo ako and can't accept my apology, I understand. Deserve ko naman yon for being an ass anyway" She said and smile weakly.

Do i really can hate Aiah? Do i really can hate this lovely girl? Alam ko naman yung mga sinabi niya sa akin na parang karayom na tumusok sa puso ko but I somewhat understand the part that she has some battles inside her which she needs to fight alone every day.

Napatitig lang ako sa kanya for a minute, nararamdaman ko naman ang sincerity sa mga sinabi niya.

"Anong nanagyari sa homophobic ass mo?" I unconsciously said which made me shut my mouth quickly and looked away from her. Ready na sana ako sa sagot niyang savage pero I heard her giggle instead.

"Let's just say na tina-try ko nang alisin ang homophobic ass ko sa picture. It's not getting quite healthy for me, you know" She said. I chuckled a bit bago ako tumahimik ulit. Ang gulo ng isipan ko right now. I can't think straight. Ano ang mangyayari sa amin kapag inaccept ko ang apology niya?

"I guess kailangan mo pa ng time para mag isip isip. I should leave." Aiah said and was about to walk away.But she stopped nung marinig niya akong nagsalita.

"I think I can accept your apology"

"Y-you do?"

"Yeah. No one is perfect naman lahat nagkakamali, even me. Sino ba naman ako para hindi tumanggap ng sincere apology mo?" I said and let out a genuine smile but it quickly faltered when i heard her answer.

"So, are we friends? Or best friends? again?" She asked.

"I'm always here for you every time you need someone pero I don't think I can go back from what we are before. I mean hindi ngayon"

"W-why?"

Lumapit ako sa kanya and i held both of her arms habang nakatitig sa mga mata niyang i love the most.

"I need to forget my feelings for you aiah. Para sa akin, Para sa atin, para lang bumalik tayo from the way that we started" I said. Aiah locked her eyes on mine. Her eyes seems to tell something.

"O-okay" She softly muttered and hung her head low. Bumitaw naman ako sa pagkakahawak ko sa kanya at napahinga na lang ng malalim.

"Give me some time aiah and I promise, I'll be back as your mik mik, As your best friend mik mik" I said before leaving the balcony.

Nakita ko naman si stacey na naka tayo sa harap ng room ko. I assume na narinig niya lahat ng pinagusapan namin ni aiah kasi i saw that usual worried look on her face. I smile at her weakly.

"Hug?" She said and spread her arms wide.

Hindi na ako nag dalawang isip and i threw myself onto her. Niyakap ko siya ng sobrang higpit and burrowed my face in her neck. Naramdaman ko naman na she's tapping my back in a comfort way.

"Magiging okay din ang lahat miks! don't worry im always here for you lang" She said in a calm, smooth voice.

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