Secret and Lies (completed)

PART 51

AIAH'S POV

It's been a week nung hindi na umattend si mikha sa practice nila. And I admit, I kinda of miss seeing her dancing. The aura and mood sa studio ay ibang iba when she's around. I wonder na kamusta na siya ngayon.

Wala akong lakas nangloob bisitahin siya after ng aksidente. Nakikita ko naman ang girls na tinutulungan siya. I can see how strong she is. Despite of what happened, napapanatili pa rin ni mikha ang ngiti niya. Triny ko naman siya kausapin kapag mag isa nalang siya pero naiisip ko parin na it might be weird kasi I despise her and spit those hurtful words to her suddenly wants to be close to her again.

Nagii-start na ako mag regret na I pushed mikha away. I honestly miss her being by my side whenever I needed her. Namimiss ko na din ang silly jokes niya na nakakapag patawa sa akin whenever i have a bad day. I miss those times that we're hanging out. I miss mikha. I miss my best friend. pero this homophobic ass of mine sent her away.

Tama si jhoanna, wala namang ginawa si mikha na something that would hurt me. if she's gay, she's not entirely like my mom. They're both different persons with their own attitude. Masyado lang akong tanga mag isip na isisi sa kanya lahat.

I leaned my back towards the wall. Nanonood ako ngayon ng dance practice and its so boring without mikhaela. Alam kong pumunta ako dito para kay gelo pero his dancing is not good as mikha.

Napatingin naman ako sa bintana, I saw someone staring. Inayos ko naman ang tingin ko and felt my heart thump. Nandoon si mikha, nakatayo sa labas ng studio but the thing she's not alone, kasama niya si chie.

"Ano paba ine-enxpect mo? They're dating idiot" I internally scold myself.

Tumayo lang sila sandali doon. Nakafocus naman sila sa mga members na busy sa pagpa-practice kaya hindi nila napansin na nakatingin ako sa kanila. Mikha's eyes mirror sadness and disappointment. Alam ko kung gaano niya ka gusto makipag participate but knowing that she have an injury, wala siyang magawa kundi to watch from afar.

Natapos na ang practice agad naman lumapit sa akin si gelo. I drift my eyes away from mikha unwillingly at nag focus sa lalaking nakangiti sa akin ngayon. I smiled back and gave the water bottle to him.

"Kailangan pa namin mag practice for a few extra hours" Gelo said as she flopped himself beside me.

"Baka hindi na kita mahatid pauwi" He added and pouted. My heart supposed to race every time that I will saw him acting cutely, pero ngayon, I felt nothing. I smiled, trying to mask the wondering that I've been having right now.

"It's okay. Naiintindihan ko naman. You guys need to strive harder" I said.

"Yeah. Without mikha, we're really on the edge" Gelo replied and leaned his back against the wall.

"Ang hirap talaga kapag wala yung ace niyo ha?"

"Indeed. Anyway, okay lang ba talaga sayo na umuwi ka mag isa?" He looked at me with worry in his eyes.

"Of course. Hindi naman na ako bata besides, hindi naman malayo ang bahay ko" I said.

"Okay. You can go whenever you want. Just take care okay?" Gelo said and planted a kiss on my cheeks nago bumalik sa practice.

Nakita ko naman si gelo and wave his hand, I just nod back and smile as a reply. I diverted my attention dun sa bintana kung saan ko nakita si mikha. nagulat naman ako nung wala na sila don.

Nanood muna ako hanggang sa ma bored ako. Busy naman si gelo na magasikaso ng practice nila i decided na umalis na at hindi na ako nagpaalam sa kanya. Sinabi din naman niya na I can leave whenever i want anyway.