Lavender Poetry

Time Phobia

I am so ambitious as a juvenile

I try to go real fast, but it still takes awhile

I've got a fiery desire, I can go for miles

And yet I'm always burnt out, dragged through these wild fires

I can be so brave, and yet I'm so afraid

Sometimes I avoid hard parts to take the easy way

I've got this purpose, and I will make the change

But sometimes I'm still stuck in my same old ways

There's a coal-blue flame underneath my eyes

And if you look real deep, you'll see inferno inside

I won't turn it off to protect their pride

And I won't cover my feelings, I got nothing to hide.

So much to do, with all the hours in a day

I still can't solve my solve my problems, 'cause more just come my way

but I know to just keep tryin' 'till I get old

I've got too many things to do, and plans to unfold.

Maybe I'll get what I want-and maybe I won't.

But if I can create, would they remember what I wrote?

I know I can't give up when I'm halfway through

If We've got some time left we've got plenty to do

I did decide a long time ago

That I'd impress my loved ones in the earth below

If they could see me, would they be proud?

Or would they just sigh while they looked down?

I think I'll keep on trying till my eyes turn grey

Until my voice is spent, and I've got nothing to say

Know that I'll be here, and I'll make my laws

Until my mark is made and it's for a good cause

Deep down I know that I am doing fine

But some thoughts burn slow, deep inside my mind

I get real scared, wonder why I trudge

knowing if I stop, then I'll lose my touch

So should I slow down and take my time?

Or try to take what I think should be mine?

I see a shadowed face on the other side-

I see a pale wrinkled skin, though I try to deny...

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Slow down now, for you're still young

You've got a lot of threads left to be strung

But You can take it easy and relax for awhile.

Because there's no shame in cooling those head- fires

One day you'll wake up and see you're out of time

But it's all okay, you'll live a worthwhile life.

if you tried real hard, you'll know that all you have done

Was all signifigant, because you only get one.

I hope you realize paradise waits for you

But time will not bother to pause a second or two

If we wait too long, we'll end up loosing too much

If we don't strike out, we'll find no hearts to touch

Now, you might think that you can't afford to

Take a moment to breathe out of virtue 

For we all know that time moves fast

And we all know that youth cannot last.

Just remember heaven waits for you

Even if time will not stand still to give a second or two

Live in this life, be fast and slow too

Because you're on a ride; so enjoy the view.

Poem Stanza Structure: 4//AABB

Theme: fear of old age, death, and unaccomplishment. Creative drive and aversion to negative thoughts of aging