JUST ONE MORE CHANCE

chapter 1

FREEN'S POV

      Ring.....ring....ring.....
Agghhh this alarm!!!! I hate this so much but I don't have any choice. I need to go to my university. So I got up from my bed, took a quick shower and got ready.

        When I got downstairs I saw my mom and dad at the dinning table waiting for me. So I quickly went there and sat beside my dad.
"Good morning, Freen" my dad greeted me with a smile.

       "Good morning mom and dad" I greeted them back.

       "Are you ready for your university?" my mom asked and I nodded while chewing a bread.

      "Do you want me to drop you there?" dad asked.

      "No dad, I can go by myself. You know I can drive well now" I replied jokingly. He just smiled and continued eating his food.

      "Ummm Freen, I have night shift today from 4:00 pm to 4:00 am, so I probably won't be home when you come back and your dad is also going out of town." Said my mom.

      "That means I'll be alone tonight?" I asked.

       "Aunty Mei is here, so why would you be alone? You can tell her if you have any problem or you can call me also. It's just for tonight, sweetie." Mom replied.

       I just sighed and said,"Okay mom I can manage." And continued having my food.

       But I know somehow I'm feeling sad again. My parents are loving and supportive but they are always busy with their works. So they don't have enough time to spend with me. I always try to understand that whatever they are doing is just to give me a better future but I need their time and attention too. And I really wish I could express my feelings to them. Nevermind, I'm getting used to being alone.

       After finishing my breakfast, I said goodbye to my parents and drove off my car to my university. While driving I was zoning out. Lately, I'm really tensed and confused about something. And this matter is really giving me a headache. I can't decide what to do and what not to do. And I can't even share it with anyone.

       As I'm the only child of my parents, I don't have any siblings. That's why my whole life has been quite lonely. So I'm an introvert person.

       I do have a few friends but I don't share my feelings with them. And I also don't know how to share my thoughts with my parents either. I'm really afraid that they will judge me. That's why I'm keeping this to my self and it's not helping!!

       Anyways after 30 mins of driving I finally reached my university. It's 8:45 am so I still have 15 mins before my first period. So I parked my car and started walking to my classroom. When I reached my classroom I saw my friends, Nam, Heng, Tee, Irin and Becky, sitting in their usual spot.

       Becky and I always sit together in the last row and my other friends sit infront of us. We all are close friends but Becky is closer to my heart, she is like my comfort zone.

        Ummm Becky... The person who has been messing with my mind for the last few days, the person who is always in my thoughts, the person who is making me confused... and I really can't understand why I'm feeling like this. Maybe because she is my very close friend...

         But last week when I saw her with Mark I really felt uncomfortable. The way they were talking and laughing made me feel very uneasy. I felt like punching his face. But why am I even feeling this way???
Is it jealousy? But why the hell will I feel jealous of her?? She is just my friend and she can talk to anyone!! But still I can't shake off my thoughts.....

        And now when she is right in front of me, those thoughts are killing me again. But I'm trying really hard to act normal. So I tried to shake off her thoughts and started walking to my friends. they all are seemed to be very busy with talking to each other that they didn't even notice me. So I quietly went near them, stood behind Nam, kept my hand on her eye and said "Guess who is it?"

      "Tsk!! I know it's you Freen. So please remove your hands because I can't see anything!!" Said Nam annoyingly.

      "Hey! How do you know it's me??" I asked.

      "Come on, Freen. At least I know your voice. And no one else will do this stupid thing early in the morning"Said Nam with a smirk and my other friends started laughing including Becky..

       This is when I looked at her and started feeling nervous again. So I took a deep breath to calm myself down. But my usual seat is beside her and this is where I need to sit. So my deep breath didn't help me that much..

  OH GOD!! I'M FEELING HOPELESS!!!

      Anyways, as I don't have any choice, I just sighed and sat beside her.
And when I was about to say something to erase my awkwardness our class teacher entered the room......

To be continued.....
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Hello guys!!
I hope you all are fine.☺️

This is my first ever story and English is not my first language. So please pardon me for my mistakes.

But I'll try my best to improve my skills and write a good story. And I hope you will enjoy this story....

Thank you 🙏🏻