JUST ONE MORE CHANCE

chapter 4

BECKY'S POV

People say we can't keep something hidden from everyone forever. This is what happened to me a few days ago when my brother came back from the UK.

My brother Richie lives in the UK. He is doing his Master's degree in THE UNIVERSITY OF EDINBURGH. It was the end of the last semester so he came back here to spend his vacation with us.

Flashback:

Whenever I miss Freen, I look at her photos and try to feel her presence. So one day, in the evening I was in my room. I was looking at her pictures, tracing my fingers on it. There were tears in my eyes thinking how badly I am missing that person. Suddenly Richie came into my room, shocking the hell out of me. I quickly tried to hide the photos under my pillow.

"Hi Bec. What are you doing?" He said walking towards me.

"Richie!!! You should at least knock before coming into someone's room" I said glaring at him.

"Hehe.. sorry sissy" he said sitting beside me. Then he suddenly noticed my eyes and said,"Bec? Are you crying?"

"N-no. What are you talking about." I said and tried to turn my head on the other side.

"I can clearly see your eyes Bec. I know you were crying and also noticed that you were hiding something under your pillow" he said seriously.

"Nothing Richie. Please leave my room now"I said trying to kick him out of my room.

But he didn't even move an inch and said, " I'm not living until you tell me why  you were crying. I'm your brother Bec, you can tell me anything. I know I don't get to spend time with you but I care about you Bec. You are my little sister. You can trust me"

Hearing his word I turned to look at him with teary eyes and said, " Will you listen to me? Will you understand my feelings?"

"Of course BecBec. I'll listen to your every word" he said giving me an assuring smile and weeping my tears away."Now tell me what happened?" he added.

"I-I am in l-love with someone" I said with hesitation.

"And who is that person?" He asked.

Instead of answering him, I moved to take out the photos which were under the pillow and showed those to him.

"Freen??" He looked kind of shocked but quickly hide it. I just nodded.

"For how long?" He asked.

"More than 3 years" I replied looking down.

"Does she know about it?" He asked again.

"No"I said controlling myself from breaking down in tears again.

"Why?? Why didn't you tell her yet?" He asked. But when I didn't reply and continued looking down, he said,"Becky look at me."

I slowly lifted my face and looked at him while crying silently.

"Hey! Why are you crying again??" He said pulling me for a hug.

"Do you think it's so easy to confess my feelings to her when I don't even know what she feels for me" I said in a broken voice.

"How will you know if you don't ask her?" He said rubbing my back.

"I'm scared Richie. I'm scared" now I'm crying heavily."What if she sees me as a friend only? What if she loves someone else? She will hate me Richie. I'll lose her forever"

"And what if she also loves you? What if she also has feelings for you?" He said and I moved to look at his face.

"Huh? I-If she has any feelings for me she would have told me"I said while wiping my tears.

"Maybe she is as afraid as you. Maybe be she is also scared to lose you. Maybe she is thinking the same as you." He paused for a moment then said again,"Try to think something positive Becky."

"But-but she...." Before I could complete my sentence he cut me off

"No buts Becky. I'm telling you, you still have time to confess to her. Otherwise you may regret for not being able to tell her about your feelings for the rest of your life"

Now I feel like my head is spinning. All of his words are making sense. I should tell her. At least I should try for once. But how?

"But how Richie? I don't know what to do. I don't know how to tell her."

"Okay. I think you should spend some alone time with her. Like watching a movie together or going to a cafe to eat something together or ummm.. try to sit together and have some meaningful conversation. Something like that. I think the more time you will spend with her, the more you will get to know about her feelings"

"And most importantly, when she is with you try to notice her body language and how she looks at you. And also try to make her feel special with your words and actions. Try to look at her with love and respect" he added more.

"Do you think I can do all these? My heart beats so fast when I look at her. I feel really nervous. I think I'll screw everything up"

"Come on sissy, be brave. You can do it" he said giving me assurance.

"Okay Boss, I'll try my best" I said smiling genuinely.

"Okay I'll go to meet some of my friends tonight. So bye, see you later" he said and left.

End of flashback

After my conversation with Richie I could think a little better and started planning how to approach her. And that's when I decided to ask her for a movie tonight.

To be continued.....