JUST ONE MORE CHANCE

chapter 3

BECKY'S POV

"Mom, I'm home. Where are you?" I asked as soon as I entered the house.

I just came back from school and now I'm searching for my mom. It's my habit to search for my mom whenever I come back from school or somewhere else.

"I'm in the kitchen, Becky. Go to your room and get freshen up first. I'm making snacks for you." Said my mom

"Okay mom." I said while walking upstairs to my room.

"Come downstairs, in the living room when you're done. I'll wait for you there." I heard my mom saying.

So I quickly changed my uniform and got freshen up. After that I went downstairs in living room. And there is my mom waiting for me and watching TV. I went near her and sat down on the sofa.

"How was your day?" Mom asked.

"It was good mom."I said with a smile. "Oh btw mom, I asked Freen to come over and watch a movie together."I added

"Oh that's good. Did she agree to come?" Mom asked.

"She said she will ask her mom first and let me know." I replied

"Okay. I'll make something special for her tonight" said my mom.

Here she goes again. Freen is always her favourite. And there is also a reason for it.

So basically my mom and Freen's mom are school friends, like best friends. So we have known each other since childhood. Our fathers also met each other because of our moms and that's how they became business partners.

"Mom! You always favour her more than me. I'm your daughter but you don't make anything special for me." I said and acted to sulk.

"Who said I don't make anything special for you hmm? Just yesterday I make your favourite pasta and now you are complaining to me?" My mom said and I hugged her from side.

"Hehehe... I was just teasing you mom" I said and she started laughing.

After mom left to do some paper work for her school, I started eating my snacks. While eating I was continuously checking my phone to see if Freen had sent something. But there was no text from her. So I just sighed and kept my phone down.

Will she come? What if she doesn't want to come over? Please God please!!
This is the first time I had the courage to ask her for a movie and if she doesn't come, I'll be really really sad.

I really want to spend some alone time with her. I want to be close to her, to see her face, to hear her voice and to hold her hand. And most importantly I want to make her mine. Yes mine!

I have been in love with her for the past few years and I didn't even realise it at first. I thought it was a platonic feelings so I tried to ignore it. But my mind was always occupied with her thoughts. There is not a single moment when I didn't think about her. Whenever I saw her talking to someone else I would feel jealous and if any day I don't see her I would miss her badly.

Although, at first I tried to ignore all these feelings, my heart kept telling me " This is love Becky. You love her. Don't let her go like this. Just tell her that you love her"

But my mind was saying something else. Totally opposite.
" No!! Don't go there Becky. What if she doesn't feel the same? What if she sees you only as a friend? Your feelings will ruin your friendship. You will lose her forever."

And I choose to listen to my mind. I kept my feelings inside me and tried to act normal and be a good friend to her. But my heart didn't stop thinking about her. It's always longing for her. No matter how strong and normal I act in front of others, I know my heart is breaking into more pieces whenever I think about her.
And sometimes when I feel too much pain to control, I cry alone in my room. I wanted to tell someone about it but I couldn't. No one will understand my feelings. So I kept my feelings hidden and let my self suffer for years.

To be continued.....