JUST ONE MORE CHANCE

chapter 6

BECKY'S POV

When I came back to my room, I saw  Freen was waiting for me. So I quickly put the snacks and drinks on the small table in front of the couch and settled down on the couch beside her. I'm sitting close enough for my arm to brush against hers. And I swallowed hard. Just sitting next to her like this is enough to send my heart racing. And she has no idea about it.

As the movie started, I tried to focus on the screen but it is impossible for me not to be highly aware of every single thing: the way she tugged her hair behind her ear, the way her eyes are so
Focused on the screen, the way she is laughing during some scenes.

At this moment, I found myself more interested in watching her reactions that the actual movie. The way her face lit up during the ballroom scene, her smile when Jack promised Rose that he would take her out of her sheltered life. Her every expression is more interesting than the movie.

Suddenly she turned to look at me, as if she had sensed that I am looking at her.

"Is there anything wrong Becky?" She asked looking at me.

"N-no Freen. everything is fine" I said trying to avoid her eyes.

"Okay" she simply replied and turned her focus on the movie. I also tried to focus on the movie and not to look at her too much because I don't wanna make her uncomfortable.

As the movie went on. Jack and Rose's romance unfolded. I couldn't help but feel a little jealous of them. It seemed so effortless for them to just say what they felt for each other.

And here I am, sitting next to her, my heart is pounding like crazy. But the longer I watch their romantic scenes, the heavier my heart becomes. I feel like the world is so cruel. Here is their grand love, unfolding before me on the screen, while I'm sitting next to the love of my life, the person I want to be mine more than anything. But I'm  unable to say a single word. It's like all my emotions and words got stuck in my throat, denying to come out. As if I'm afraid she will vanish into the air as soon as I'll express my feelings to her.

As I was looking at her, I noticed she is turning red and kind of breathing heavily. That got me confused. So I turned to look at the movie.

And fuck!! Oh my God!! It's the car scene!! They are making love there!!

Now I'm also breathing heavily. I quickly turned to look at Freen but she is already looking at me. Her face is so close to me. Her gaze is shifting between my eyes and lips. We stayed like that for a few seconds. Then she started to get more and more closer to me.

Gosh!! Is she leaning in?? What should I do now?? Does she want to kiss me??

I don't know what to do, so I also started leaning in. There is nothing better than kissing her right now.

So I closed my eyes and was about to kiss her....

"Freen??becky?? Dinner is ready. Come downstairs quickly. Your food is getting cold." My mom said making us shocked and startled.

We quickly moved away from each other and smiled awkwardly. While I'm still speechless, trying to find the right words to say, Freen cleared her throat and said, "I think we should go now. Your mom might get mad if we get late for dinner."

YES MY MOM!!! What a great timing she has! Couldn't she wait for just 2 mins?? I just missed my first kiss...

I'm screaming internally. I don't know what to say, so I just sighed and paused the movie. We both got up and started going downstairs.

When we got downstairs at the dinning room, I saw mom was waiting for us at the dinning table. So I sat beside her and Freen sat across me. And we started eating.

But I noticed that Freen became so quite. She is not even looking at me and she is also frowning. It's like she is thinking about something deeply.

What is she even thinking? Is she regretting her acting? Does she think, what we were about to do, is wrong?

All these thoughts are making me feel sick. She is also not eating properly. She is just holding her spoon and making circles on her plate..

What am I gonna do now? How am I gonna face her? God!!

Rebecca Patricia!! You really screwed up this time!!

To be continued.....