Poguelandia (Kiara x JJ) ~ [COMPLETED]

Chapter 9

Chapter 9

JJ

The guys and I need a day to ourselves.

We decided early in the morning to take the trek to the pond to relax in the warm water for the day. Just us, no girls.

John B and Pope are totally pussy-whipped, and I'm not far behind, so we take a day just for us and away from the girls.

And I definitely need time away from Kiara to process everything that's happened with her.

We eat a little breakfast of coconuts and berries before making our way over to the pond.

"I wonder what the girls will do today," Pope says after the three of us dive into the water.

"Nope!" I interrupt. "None of that. No girl talk."

John B and Pope exchange a curious glance.

"Why so adamant about no girls today, JJ?" John B asks.

I let out a sigh, leaning back in the water to get my head wet again before pulling up and shaking my hair out. "I just feel like we need a day."

"A day...?" Pope asks suspiciously.

"Yes. A day," I respond. "There are some things I need to wrap my head around, and I would prefer it if talk of the girls was put to a pause."

John B and Pope exchange another glance.

We sit in silence for a minute, and both of them just stare at me the entire time.

And I can tell it's killing them to keep quiet.

"Oh my god! You know what? Fine!" I exclaim, roughly raising my arms out of the water. "You win. You get two minutes to ask me whatever the hell you want to ask because I know you're both dying to, and then that's it! No more! Please."

They exchange an amused glance, smirking at each other before turning back to me.

"We knew you would break," Pope says.

"Yeah, you're too predictable," John B adds. "We know you too well."

I roll my eyes and pretend to look at a watch on my arm. "One minute and fifty seconds."

"What the hell is going on in that head of yours?" John B asks. "Is this about what happened with Kie?"

I shrug my shoulders. "I'm just so conflicted, bro. I've liked her for a while, and I never thought that she would reciprocate my feelings, but now I just don't know anymore."

"What changed?" Pope asks.

"What do you mean?"

"What changed between now and before that has you all conflicted?"

"I mean, you saw. We almost kissed, and it totally freaked me the fuck out. And then we almost kissed a second time but I pulled away before we could."

"Why'd you pull away?" John B asks. "Why not just kiss her?"

I shrug. "I don't even know dude. I was scared, I think."

"Scared of what?" Pope asks.

I take a moment to think and process his question before answering, "Scared of everything changing."

Change. That's what it is. I'm scared of change.

My dynamic with Kie, with all of my friends, is perfect. I can't think of a single thing I would want to change about my relationship with any of them. We all fit in each other's lives perfectly, and dating is different. It's a change. And I don't want to risk changing the lives of me, Kiara, or any of us. And dating could do just that.