My life has revolved around making others happy,
Putting my needs and wants on the backburner.
Conflict makes my knees tremble. I avoid it at all costs.
I avoid the ridicule and comments of those around me.
When I made them happy, a temporary smile formed.
But the deep hole in my heart is permanently engraved.
I desire to make myself happy, to create a future for me.
The shadow follows me everywhere I go, waiting to strike.
The moment I feel a glimmer of hope, it grins and attacks.
It attacks with the knife of doubt and fear into my back.
It laughs as I yelp in pain, it feeds off of me and I don't fight.
It wins every single time. I am left beaten and bloodied.
I've stopped fighting. I have given up and I am under its power.
The life I've led up until now has not been authentically me,
I've been living vicariously through others and what they wanted.
I've walked in their shadows, copying everything to the last detail.
I am tired of putting my life on the line to make those around me happy.
The life I am seeking is looking for me. It is on its way to me with open arms.
All that's left to do is to meet myself halfway and embrace it for all it is worth.
Because I am so much more than the words of other people's expectations.
~ K.K
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