I arrive at my school, knowing I was somewhat late for my 1st class, even tho I'm a person that likes to be on time and that's just who I am.
On my way to my locker, I saw Maggie and I genuinely smiled cause she's someone safe to be around with. Even if her parents are doctors and she wants to be one as well , and her family is really rich, she's friends with me, the ugly and poor me, with the broken family me.She gives me a quick hug and tells me that she asked if she could change her locker closer to mine, and the principal finally agreed . Probably cause her father has authority and good relationships, lol.
We chat calmly as we take out our math textbooks and supplies as we head to our class, but on our way there, I see a tall brown haired guy walking the opposite direction. I stopped in his way for a split second, thinking " He really resembles Leo.." and so he stopped too , with a confused strange expression on his face that I just couldn't figure out what it meant.
Leo or Leonardo was a boy that was with me back in Middle school, I- uh Really liked him back then, I was shy but creative and kind, I was really girly too, bracelets and pink shirts and hair ribbons, I told him I liked him one day and the whole school for some reason was watching him reject me saying" No way, I don't want a fat girlfriend" .I don't blame him, it was better to be honest from the beginning and not lead me on even if we were 12 and 12. Besides, he was rich and with real goals unlike young me that only cared about chocolates and what was served at dinner.
The next day, I skipped school and the day after, I switched schools cause we couldn't afford a private school anymore after my brother passed away ,and I haven't seen Leo ever since.I quickly apologized to him and continued my way. Isn't he the same guy from before too? from the library?
"Do you know who he is?" Asks Maggie, and I was surprised by her sudden question but i answered "No, You?", "Of course I do! He's the one that transfered yesterday and everyone is talking about" She notes. I reply " oh yea.." then silence kinda took place.Math went by so slow like torture, I kinda wanted to eat something today but recalling Leo's Words that day, I just wanted to throw up all the junk I used to eat, I still eat but as healthy as possible. I lost 4kg this year and another 4kg the year before, I don't know how much I weigh now, I don't own a scale.. I've been debating if I should buy one or not, there are technically more important things to buy, but idk..
" What're you eating?" Asks Maggie all of a sudden, "idk to be honest" I say, " I might just go to the library", " What? again? No! You study too much, besides you can sit with us if you want", I sight considering her idea then finally say"fine, I'll go to the library to pick up a book to read later then catch up with you at the cafeteria" and so that was the plan. You might have noticed already, but I'm a book girl, that reads alot.I go into the library, in hope I'll see him in there again to be honest, just to take another glance to decide if its him or not. maybe I should ask him his name...? No that's too weird, besides everyone labeled me as a freak here in the school already so they probably told him that, but what if he knows its me and it's actually him?, Winter, stop it, you know he's too good to study in a public school, I'm sure he stayed in a private one.
I usually don't go to the cafteria, but because this time Maggie asked, i couldn't let her down and accepted.
I sped up my feet as I realized I'm already late to the cafeteria after i picked up the book, and unfortunately didn'tsee him ,but stop when I see horror as i walked in.
The place was full of printed pictures of my fat picture, me, in my tight shirt with stomach flaws, double chin, and my white ribbon that I lost on the day I made the confession, that scard me so deeply. They photoshoped pigs and cows into the pictures, they wrote cow and pig next to my name (Winter pig, got so big) .
The same picture that probably Cassie sent to her phone when we were in the bathroom.
I just looked around absolutely devastated and heartbroken, but I didn't see Maggie, did she set me up!?? I was looking for her, then walked to her and said " Was it funny enough for you?! Bringing me here just to remind me that I'm a pig!?". She knows I don't go to the cafteria, and she usually doesn't ask me to, so why today ?
"What are you saying Winter??? Nooo!! I would never ! It was a coincidence you got to believe me, See watch me." She cried as she began to take them down on and put them in the trash. I was trying to avoid her eyes, I couldn't look her in the eyes or anyone's, I was too unstable.
I turned behind and accidentally locked eyes with "the new Guy", that wasn't that far from me, I noticed he was confused but concerned, he really did look like him.. and I just wanted to cry."3, 2, 1!" Shouted Alice and everyone just started throwing their food and poured milk on me, as they laughed saying Fatty again n again n again, making me recall how it felt the day he called me fat and all the kids laughed made me cry in both scenarios.
" What the hell! That's no way to treat someone!" The Leo looking dude said as he was making his way to my side.
One of his friends laughed as he called " Leo, just leave her she ain't worth it"So it is him..
"I make my own decisions," he responded, " come on, let me help you out," as he basically carried me in front of everyone after I collapsed, and helped me get to the restroom to clean up.
" Do you want me to wait for you at the door?" He asked, and I just look at him for a long minute then respond" It's okay, you've already done so much"
There was a long silence as I looked at the floor and he looked at me before he broke the silence with the question I feared most: "Winter, do i know you?"
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Lower- Ed novel
Teen FictionWinter Johnson is a 17 year old girl that develops an eating disorder as she tries desperately to fix everything wrong in her life, however Winter refaces people she knew as a different winter than the one they knew, a much sadder version, and much...