Lower- Ed novel

9. Shirt

I wake up noticing that my hair has gotten longer but somewhat thinner, and I haven't  noticed until now that even my dyed hair has almost grown out. I start to debate whether or not I should redye it before the basketball match tonight. Maggie is going to go watch it even if Jacob is with another girl, she said she wants to support him, and her friends that I don't know really well but are nice to me are also looking forward to watching it.

I step on the scale multiple times a day for I am dying to see a new number, a number that is less than 107lbs, but no luck so far.

I eat an apple, and go to school, and wait for lunch break to start, so I can get a  nap in, but I get a notification on my phone from Maggie begging me to come join her in the cafeteria. I wanted to say no so bad, but I felt like I was going to ruin our friendship once again if i did, and I didn't have anybody else in the school. I send her an okay, in hopes that nothing would happen there again.

I step in and all gazes turn towards me, making me feel vulnerable. I see them whisper about me, "oh it's the girl with an eating disorder" "ewww she looks like a stick", making me feel even worse.
I take a step back to leave, but then see Maggie wave at me from a distance. I pull up the courage and walk to her despite people laughing on me, then greet her friends as I sat down.

" you have pretty brown hair" notes the friend that helped  me a while back with her clothes", " oh thank you, it grow out.." I say.
"I'm Liz " she says, then I give her my name, another girl says " oh we know your name alright", "What do you mean..?" I ask somewhat hurt but another girl interrupts saying" Maggie never shuts up about you lol", "oh I see hhhhh" I say nervously. "She has wanted us to meet you for a while, but always says that you're busy studying.  "Yea.." I say quietly, and they continue the conversation about prom and the game that everyone's going to watch, not for the sake of the sport really but because they're all hot basically. I just nod along and comment here and there, zoning out about food every little bit.
"Winter, do u wanna get something to eat?" Maggie asks me kindly with sweet eyes, " I uh- idk", " come on I'll get you your favorite "she adds, "my favorite?" I think, I haven't had that in a while".
I follow her to a line where I meet someone I have also been avoiding, Lily, but not only Lily, Lily and 3 devils. Apparently she is now closer friends with them.

"Hi winter! " she greets, "hey.. " I reply,
" I saw you that day flirting with Jacob would u care to speak?", "flirting ? No I don't have intentions to be with your man", "ah ! Why cause he doesn't find you pathetic? How sad, Leo pitted you just a little bit and you learned how to bark back", she says aggressively,
"What..?" I say, but she only continues "maybe you should find someone that doesn't notice your cute little starvation game so you could keep your hands to yourself!" She screams at me, as she smacks my empty food tray to the floor, making me regret the thought of wanting to eat.

"Hey bitch" Maggie steps in cursing unexpectedly, and everyone goes in shock as they watch this cat fight. Maggie already dislikes her for the fact that Jacob deserves better, and that she has always been a bully underneath, and this was the opportunity for both to fight, because even Lily dislikes Maggie for knowing that she and Jacob were very close, and Wala! they got physical in the fight and pulled each other's hair as it got recorded from the very beginning that included me, and got sent everywhere.

Jacob and Leo along two other friends of theirs bust in, where Jacob rushes to go stop this stupid fight of theirs, trying to calm down both sides, but I? Oh I was just standing like a statue, frozen up, and very useless, stunned to the point that I didn't even notice Leo came in.

The principal came in as the fight got out of hand, it was a mess.

I leave the crime scene in a rush to the bathroom, and take a good Stare at my reflection in the mirror before feeling nauseous and disgusted. I look around to make sure no one's around, and pull up my shirt to look at my fat stomach and ribcage, then look down at my thighs that I hated so much. I go to the toilet , put up the seat, and push my fingers down my throat in order to vomit what's left of my apple. Since it was my first time purging and not much in my stomach, it took me alot of effort and energy to get it done, making me pass out for couple of minutes behind a locked bathroom door where no one can see.

Alice Raven's pov:

A fight starts between two girls over a boy, and I just leave the scene in the middle of it without saying a word, not wanting to get involved. I love Cassie and Jasmine, but what they do ? I don't know sometimes. Yea sure it's fun, but it's not always right to body shame, even tho Cassie body shames us her friends, it really fucked me up.

I enter the bathroom, and moments later  the girl we have been bullying walks in in a horribles state. I just stay quiet and watch from the key hole as I observed her pulling up her shirt and count her ribs, making me feel bad for her.. she suddenly goes to the bathroom and shuts the door and I quietly take a step back in order for her to not hear me, but I was the one that was hearing, hearing what ? Gagging, and vomit splashing that gave me goosebumps and couldn't help but to close my eyes until she was done. I flinch at the sound of something falling to the ground, and I freeze for a couple of seconds before I look over to see if she's okay.

I find her on the floor passed out with bits of undigested food on her shirt, "oh my" I say, i try to sit her up then leave her a fresh water bottle, and spare clothes I have had with me for her to change into if she wanted. With my hands i shake her gently as I call out her name. Once I saw that she started to wake up, I left before she could see me.

End of pov 

I wake up slowly finding my self on the bathroom floor, that got me confused, before i remember what happened. I get up and see a water bottle and a clean shirt then look at my reflection in the mirror, "oh no my shirt! Aghhhh just great", I see the clean shirt and think that someone has forgotten it here, I take a closer look and find a note that made me grow even more confused, it said "for winter" in handwritten letters. I put on the obviously expensive looking shirt, and drink water from the new water bottle for mine was already empty, then head out grateful for that shirt, truly.

I call Maggie to see what happened to her, she tells me to meet her in front of the school in a happy excited voice, that made feel like I was hallucinating about the whole cafeteria fight, not knowing if it actually happened or not.

I stand out and wait for her, I hear the door open and I turn to see if its her, but all I saw was Alice, making my heart stop for a second thinking that she's about to worsen my day even more, however she just looks at my shirt then looks back at her phone and walks off.

She probably knew no poor girl like me wears expensive shirts like these.