Lower- Ed novel

3. it awakes

He waited patiently for me to answer,and as he was taller than me (I was around 5'4, kinda short yea) , he would lean his head a little.
" I'm Winter, but I don't know who you're talking about" I lie  and watch to see his reaction, but he gave me none.

"Mhmm, though I've seen those pictures before" he says as he strikes his glaze into my eyes and they were powerfull but comforting, idk how to describe it, I just couldn't look at him anymore, so I looked down and mumbled with a soft voice" that girl from over there looks nothing like me." As I walk off, leaving him behind.

It felt like History sometimes repeated itself.

I went to a different bathroom since i walked off, and started to wash my hair from the raw eggs and milk as I tried my best to look presentable, but it just wasn't working. I lowkey wanted to  walk out of school but I knew I needed someone to explain the lessons to me, and no way I can afford a private tutor so teachers were my only option.
I felt a tap once again on my shoulder so I flinched. " oh I'm so sorry to scare you". I see a random girl from our school with clothes in her hands. "I sit at Maggie's Table and I'm a friend of hers, and if you're her friend then were are too" she says , then continues with a soft smile: " they're not the best clothes, but I had them extra with me and I wanted to give 'em to you. I'm very sorry for what they did, they're just jealous and dumb"
I look at her as I thanked her and made her know I'll bring them back to her tomorrow. She kinda saved the day to be honest.
I go finish the last 2 classes and tried my hardest to focus, but my thoughts were somewhere else. He's gotten really handsome..., and my heart stops every second i think of him, but I left Any form of Love behind me, I don't need it, I just need to reach my goals, this is just the beginning, and I got my answer, I NEED to get the scale, and it has to be today. I'm just going to deny that I'm the girl he knew, I'm too embarrassed.. I haven't gotten that skinner either, he probably knew me right away cause I'm still fat! Last time I checked my weight I was at 129lbs which was about 3 months ago at the pharmacy scale.

I go home looking forward to getting a scale, I get inside my very simple old room and start collecting every little cent I have. I was short on 2 dollars and I started to freak out, how am I supposed to get a scale now?! I'll be that fat girl forever! I started mumbling with tears, I really just wanted to cry off all the pounds on me in a corner and disappear.
I heard the front door of the house unlock and I figured it was my mom from the sound of the heels, I wipe my tears and tie my hair up a little better and change into some of my clothes and take off the one's that the girl gave me, then go down stairs.
" Welcome home mom.." I say, she looks at me sweetly "well thank you my sweet Winter". I was holding my tears in, she was so much nicer when Dad wasn't around anymore, he begun showing up less and less at the house, like he gave up on us since he couldn't earn money like Brother did. I somewhat begin imaging a life of just me and mom and my little brother  it wouldn't be that bad. I knew my parents loved each other so much, crazy in love even, but it has turned into a toxic relationship, after dad started drinking, he's hardly the dad i knew.

I noticed my mom looked slimmer too than before and i automatically started to compare my body to hers .I was  disappointed with my self. I needed to take myself seriously, if I wanted to feel better, be happier, be more social, I needed to lose weight, so I brought up my courage and asked my mom for 2 dollars. " What for?" she asked, I quickly replied" there are some friends that invented me to a café and I wouldn't want to go without any cash on me" I say, knowing damn well that I'm lying to my mother.
She looked at me somewhat happy" oooh I'm glad my girl is being more social, here take this 5, it's all I have in my purse right now, I haven't gotten my payment yet but i hope it does the job". I hugged her which was odd a little bit for both of us but we hugged anyway, then went on with our own stuff

It was afternoon, and i get dressed, then go on a mission to buy a scale. I had 3 dollars left extra so I just ended up saving them instead of paying for transport and walked my way home.
As I walked, I looked at all the trees and absorbed the sunlight, that got me thinking about Leonardo once again. How come the Most wanted man in our school, I want him to? Wanted I mean, of course I used to, but now I don't.

I just kept on thinking like that until I got a little tired since I haven't eaten since yesterday's Dinner and it's 5pm now, which was almost 24h, I haven't ever gone without food for 24h , and it'll be a new record, so I sat down at a bench that I found in my way and noticed there was a cafe/ brunch shop. Has it opened recently? It's kinda close to our school, but I've never noticed it.

I go inside, and it was interesting, it gave me relaxing and calm vibes but productivity and movement as well. I noticed a sign they had in which they were in need of employees. I sign up my name. A little more money wont harm.

I get home, and the house was empty. I finally get into the shower, and take out the scale from it's new box. I pat a kiss on it as i whispered "you shall be my new best friend " then I put it gently on the floor.
My heart beated so fast, and suddenly, I felt so much heavier. I put my feet on it and stand up as I read 122lbs, which meant I lost 7lbs since last time