My Rockstar Baby Daddy

Chapter 10 Life-Changing Choices

Two and half months later...

POV: Sapphire

It is now December 5th, can you believe it? Oh, where has the year gone? It's gone by so fast. "Hey girl, my usual please?" I'm working in the cafe right now and Grace has just walked in. "Got it." I ring her order up and begin to make it. "So how have you been? That ex-boyfriend still giving you any trouble?" Grace asks. 

I hate that she knows about that. Grace is one of those friends where things don't get personal. She's one of those friends you want to call up and ask if she wants to hang out or go shopping to get closer but you never do. She only knows about Josh and I breaking up because he came in with Mia one day to start something with me. Josh and Mia have truly shown their true colors now that we aren't together.

Lucy only put up with Mia for my sake. She had no problem banning Mia and Josh from her cafe. "Unfortunately, I do go to school with them still," I answer. "You know you can always come to me if things get any worse. Lucy tells me you've been sick lately." Grace says moving into conversation territory. "Yeah, I have been. I have a doctor's appointment this afternoon. I'm just hoping it's not what I think it is." I tell her. 

I've been waking up sick every morning for the past month and a half. I think I know what's wrong and I'm not sure how to feel about it. "Ok, well that's good. I hope you feel better. This cold weather can be so dreadful." I give Grace her coffee. "Thank you. I'll see you soon." Grace says leaving a tip in the jar before she leaves with her coffee. 

An hour later my shift ends. I didn't work for very long today because of my doctor's appointment. Lucy was the one who made it for me. She has given me no choice in the matter. I hate going to the doctor but I have a feeling this doctor's appointment will be life-changing. 

Lucy practically pushed me out of the door urging me to go. I know she cares and is just worried but sometimes that woman can be overly persistent. Ella will be taking me to the appointment today. We have plans later tonight for a movie night so she's coming over anyway. 

"Oh man, Mrs. Lucy is serious about this doctor's visit. Are you feeling ok? I know you're putting up a strong act but I can tell you're not at your best." Ella expresses her concerns. I know she's right. I have been masking the worst of it but I don't want to admit anything until I have confirmation. I've been putting it off for a week now because the reality scares me. 

"I know, and I'm sorry. Hopefully, the doctor will know what's wrong." I apologize, not wanting to talk about it. I'm feeling nervous enough about it. Gosh, what have I done? Was revenge really worth what I thought it was? Right now, I'm not so sure. 

"I hope so too," Ella whispers. We ride the rest of the way in silence. I let my thoughts flow through my mind. I don't know If I can do this. Should I contact that guy? I still have his number. I dream about him sometimes. I still remember him as if it all happened yesterday. There was something about him that called to me. It was like I was drawn to him.

I've contemplated with myself whether or not I should contact him. Each time I decided against it. He was older than me, though I'm not sure how much older than me he is. I can't tell you how much time I've spent doodling his name in my notebooks at school. A part of me wishes I would just gain the courage and just call him. Make the bold move, you know? 

"You're doing it again." Ella breaks me from my thoughts. "Huh? I'm sorry what?" I ask. "You're doing it again. You daydreaming about that guy again. I'm telling you if you truly feel ready to move on from Josh then call him." Ella advised me. Josh is another reason I haven't called Hayden. I'm still nursing a broken heart.

"I am not." I deny. Ella giggles. "You are but that's ok. I wish I saw this guy that has your mind so preoccupied lately." I wish she could have too. Hayden was hot. He made me feel things I never thought possible. I wonder if that's normal to feel like that or if he was just that good.

"Oh, look we're here," I say as Ella parks the car at the doctor's office. Honestly, I'm relieved we are here because I didn't want to continue that conversation any more than I had to. "I'll see you in a bit." I get out of the car and enter the building.

I check in and take a seat in the waiting room. Subconsciously, I think I know why I've been so sick lately. Today will only confirm or deny this. The only problem If I'm not then what is wrong with me? I've been mentally preparing myself for this day. It's happening and I may not have a choice this time but to call up that guy.

"Sapphire?" Ten minutes later a nurse calls out my name. I take a nervous deep breath trying to calm my nerves before I get up. I follow the nurse into one of the rooms where she takes my vitals and weighs me. 

"Ok, what seems to be the problem today?" The nurse asks. "Well, I've been getting sick lately. Mostly in the mornings. I'm throwing up. I'm late." I tell her. "Ok, when was your last mental cycle?" She asks. "Um, August 20th?" I answer. It's been a while. "Alright, now it's important that you are completely honest with me here. Have you been sexually active?" She asks. "Um, not recently. Look just give me the pregnancy test, alright. It was just the one time on my birthday." I tell her getting annoyed with her questions. 

The nurse raises a brow at me. "The doctor will be in, in just a moment." She says leaving the room. Why do I feel like I'm being shamed for every little decision I've ever made every time I see a doctor?  I swear they're not supposed to be but they are by far the most judgemental people I have ever met.

Soon the nurse walks back in to inform me she needs a urine sample and proceeds to hand me the cup and points to the bathroom. Once I'm done with that I sit back in the room waiting. My future is right here depending on the results I get. This is one of those moments where everything will change or continue as they have. 

"Hello, Sapphire, I'm Dr. Meyers, how are you?" The doctor finally arrives. "I'm fine," I mumble. "Great, I have your test results. Now judging by your symptoms I don't think a blood test is necessary. You have a positive pregnancy test." The doctor says. "I-I'm sorry w-what?" I stutter. "You're pregnant Miss. Tristin." He says. And just like that two words change my entire life.