summer cabin [OILROSE]

Chapter 14; hurt.

A/N: heyyyy so I'm like grinding on these chapters rn bc my brain is actually working rn and I need to take advantage of that, but anyways y'all these are extra chapters I decided to add out of the blue, so enjoy this angst :)

btw animals exist on copper nine, bc why not hehe

//'J's POV'\\

[It's been a day since I went downstairs, I wonder if everyone's ok..wait- why do I care? it's not like they'll talk to me, well besides N but even he rarely talks to me, now that I think of it..why did they bring me with them? they never called me their friend, in fact I don't think I'm even close to being called their friend, specially since I've hurt them all quite a lot..Ugh why do I hurt everyone? I mean I don't really want to hurt anyone..It's just- I think I understand what people meant when they called us monsters. But N and V had their redemption, I'm still stuck as being a rude person, I'm not even sure if I can use the word 'person' for myself... I sigh, my tail wrapping around me, a single tear falling "I'm not a monster....I'm just broken," I murmur, I then growl at myself "how unprofessional J, being broken.. pfft, a broken drone can't get work done, not a worker drone, or a disassembly drone.." I sigh looking down.

Why do I act surprised when they tell me that N and V are doing better than me? because they're useless! that's why, J- get a hold of yourself! you can't just have mood swings like that!! it's unprofessional of you to act like that, jeez what is up with me?? I normally don't act like this when I get into a dispute with someone, so why is it affecting me so much?? remember, don't get attached to anyone, or else you'll get killed...again, and you can't go back to that dark place you were in. 

I sigh, well I guess I should go downstairs and get something, or just go on a walk, I stand up as my tail swivels, I climb down the roof, not planning on entering the window to my room because V was in there and it was too awkward for me to enter, I soon reach the bottom and jump onto the ground, I look around and decide to take the path for hikers.

                                                                    time skip: 35 minutes

I walk for some time, until I notice a hurt creature, I kneel down towards it and sigh "J you are really  unprofessional, but i've always been, so why care now? maybe I can redeem myself and get other to like m- no! you're only doing this because the animal is in the way!" I roll my eyes at myself and examine the animal, I notice a wound on it's leg, I decide to disinfect it and then bandage it, I wrap the bandages gently around the animal's paw, I then make sure that I bandaged the cat tightly, but not tight enough to make it's blood circulation stop, the cat then stood up slowly, I nodded and started walking away, until the cat stopped me, I was rubbing itself against my legs, I then said "why are you acting like this? I just helped you get better faster, what's with the affection??"  The cat then purred and continued, I sigh and scratch its head, I then leave, my mind continuing to reffer to that, why would an animal act like that? but now that I think of it, whenever N or V helped someone, they'd get attention, or the person would be really nice to them, and they were grateful.

Why would someone act like that? sure they helped you, but you shouldn't have let them, people should learn to handle themselves, others won't always be there for them, although..It was sort of nice to have that kind of attention..Who am I kidding? of course it was! people giving you attention is usually really nice,  I then wave to the cat and continue walking for a bit.

                                                         time skip: 15 minutes

It's been some time since I came back, I look up and then see the sun slowly but surely rising, I sigh "guess it's time to head back" I murmur to myself, I then make my way back quietly. As soon as I reached the cabin I took my claws out and started climbing up to the roof again, as soon as I reach the ceiling, I remember the encounter I had with V, why now? I was just starting to have a nice day, I take a deep breath and try to ignore it, I then remember the cat, I slowly smile. It felt nice helping that cat..Wait- is that why N likes to help so much? I think I know what he meant when he said that it gave him a warm feeling, I guess he was right..Helping does feel nice]

A/N: sorry if this chapter was boring but I wanted to have a chapter focused on J, so there isn't much going on, but either way I still hope you liked it, my neck hurts :')