An Abomination

Trust

I thought of her as a friend.
Spending Christmas in the hospital in the isolation ward was painful enough.
Celebrating new years with a friend could ease that pain.
I just wanted to see the fireworks so I went to the side of the ward you were in as the side I was on was blocked by buildings. It was mesmerising how humans could invent something as alluring as fireworks. I was glad I got to spend it with you, a friend.
I went to bed happy I got to make a friend, especially on New Year's Day.
However, I was a fool to think someone who be my friend without something in return.
It's not fair
I couldn't fight you off or scream for help.
I fear falling asleep now, worried something like that would happen to me again. Even if I'm home alone or strictly with my family.
Nobody is trusted.
I'll remember you till the end of time, those turquoise highlights, and rainbow painted nails, always covered in floral scented perfumes. You've ruined my concept of relationships. How could someone want to befriend me or fall in love with me without something in return?