4 December 1995

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Dear Ced,

I don't know where to start. Everything seems to be closing in on me—grief, guilt, frustration, and this overwhelming sense of isolation. I keep trying to push through, but it feels like I'm drowning. I wish I could explain it all properly, but the words never seem to come out right.

The team decided to make changes, and I've been kicked off. It's not just that; it's everything. I feel betrayed by the people I thought would stand by me. The weight of their decision feels like the final straw, and it's hard to see a way forward when everything I've worked for seems to be slipping away.

I've been reporting students to Umbridge, and it's made people wary of me. I hate that I'm seen as a traitor, even though I'm only following orders. It's hard enough to cope with your absence and the constant worry from my family, but now I'm struggling to find my place even among our friends. It feels like I'm losing everything that used to anchor me.

I don't know if you can hear me or if this letter will ever reach you, but I want you to know that I'm trying. I'm trying to hold on, even when it feels like everything is falling apart. I miss you terribly, and the void you've left behind seems to grow larger every day.

I wish you were here to talk to, to tell me that it's going to be alright. But for now, I'm left with only the echoes of our memories and the ache of your absence. I hope wherever you are, you can understand how much I need you and how much I wish things were different.

With all my heart,
D.W

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