Off The Wall-jahseh onfroy

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sorry this is another time skip

it's been a year. i moved out of broward to live with my grandma. after what jahseh was saying to me i just been different. call me corny but that shit hurt. hearing that from your own bestfriend you've know since elementary?! i haven't talked to nobody besides my mom and grandma. each time i talk to my mom, all she says is "i told you them boys was trouble."

that's another reason why i moved with my grandma. i still live in florida, just in plantation.

but i ain't like depressed, i just feel alone. i literally don't have no friends. that paulina girl is no good.

but hey at least i get more freedom. i don't really go to school no more. my grandma said as long as i'm doing what she ask i can do whatever

i'm currently walking to the corner store for my grandma, she treat my like a lil slave but it's fine

i'm getting some chips for her. again plantation not bad it's just where i live. i stay seeing boys sitting outside that corner store it don't scare me tho

"damn ma you thick!" i hear some boy say. i look at him fast with a mug and look away

"yo x leave people alone!" some boy smoking a cigarette says

"yeah you deadass be cat calling mad females and they be mugging you." another voice says

"bitches ain't shit you think i care?" this x kid says and laughs

he just sounds so dumb and immature.

i finally walk into the corner store grab a lil shopping basket, and head to the chips isle. my grandma gave me 35 bucks so ima go ham. i got her shit first. then i get mine. got some arizona, twix peach rings, cup noodles, slim jim's, a beef patty, and a hot sausage!

this my dinner for tonight!

i pay and walk out and then boys still there and it just smells bad, just a nasty smell of cigarettes

"aye bitch i know you heard me the first time!" i hear that x person day

"i ain't no bitch, watch who you talking to!" i respond

and then other boys instigate

"you acting real tough! huh! lemme see yo face i bet you ugly as shit!" he says

"fuck outta her, you corny as shit! trying degrade females and shit calling them bitches. you weren't raised right." i say and walk off

just disrespectful! and i saw his scraggly ass! hair look nappy ass shit, then locs or whatever was on his head was not it!

just ruined my night!

when i get back home i give my grandma her things then go into my room. this was a pretty small house. one story home.

still grateful tho.

when i get in my room i place my beef patty on my dresser and put the bag on my bed.

i change into my basketball shirt and wear my wife beater

i have a lot of wife beaters if you didn't know

i look at myself in the mirror and these shorts lowkey made my look thick! and of course i started shaking my ass before i cringed at myself and sat down

i grab my beef patty and remote and go to netflix to watch some show i find

man i miss my friends, i wish me and jah didn't end it off on a bad note...

i miss stoke a lot too, that was literally my brother. not my blood but it felt like it

i miss my dad too, if i wasn't born then he would've still been here.

it's all my fault

i woke up after thinking long and hard last night. i definitely ate like half of my snacks but that's okay.

i check my phone but realize that i ain't charge it, and it's dead. so of course i put it in the shower

i just stretch and roll off my bed.

i look in my dresser for an outfit for today and place it on my bed with my lotion

today i'm wearing light washed distressed ripped jeans, with a black shirt and my black forces

i walk out my room and head into the bathroom. i do whatever i do, and shower.

once i get out, i wrap the towel around me and walk to my room.

when i get in there i moisturize my body and get dressed. i look at my phone and its charged. it's currently 9:57.

yeah i'm not going to school today.

i'm actually going back to that damn corner store for another beef patty, it was good as fuck.

so i grab my phone off the charger and get my purse off my door. my grandma was currently at work since she leaves at 8 and comes home at like 5.

i walk out the house and start my short ass journey to the corner store

i'm convinced i'm there everyday! but that's perfectly fine!

the closer i get to that corner store it's some boys out there

every fucking time!

ion know who the boys are but niggas always be out there like they tryna find a prostitue or sum shit!

"x don't even say nothing today." the one with the raspy voice says

bruh the same niggas from yesterday

"vruh, i wasn't even going to i'm a changed man! wassup beautiful." that x kid said to me and i looked at him

he didn't have no shirt on he had some tattoos on his face and one on his chest

yo where is his mother?

"thanks." i say dryly and look back down

"she don't want yo pretty ass!" some other dude says making me laugh a little

"why you laughing?" he says and i look at him

this time more at his facial features

he was definitely a pretty boy

"because i thought it was funny." i respond

"aye dis da same jawn from yesterday!" the raspy voice says

i'm just tryna walk into the corner store why the walk inside feel so long

like i get its somewhat a gas station but jesus!

"i'm not a fucking jawn! so watch it!" i say and one of them smack they lips

and i'm so close to punching them

"you know who she sound like!" the x person says

"lanai!" they say and they laugh as i turn around