Long story short I took a break and kind of came back recently because things were getting better. But not even like an hour ago shit got 100 times worse. I'm so in shock right now and can't even regulate my emotions properly to the point where I can't even feel anything at all and don't know how I'm supposed to react. So I have no idea if I'm going to want to keep writing while I get over this or not because sometimes I use writing to cope and sometimes I feel too shitty to do anything I enjoy. So if I don't upload I'm either on break or dead.
