Oklahoma Heart: Stolen Away

Crazy For This Girl

Emmalynn was rushing around her apartment frantically shuffling things and organizing them again and again. She was so nervous. How could she do this? How had she done it before? I mean was it that easy to let him back into her heart? These were the constant thoughts in her head. Well.. then she'd also think about other things...

It's been a LONG time since she let a man into her bed. Okay a long time since she let him into her bed. 10 years is a long time to be celibate. She had thought about this many times. He was literally the only man in her fantasies. 

Well Ryan Gosling did make appearances but can you blame the woman.  Also, seeing Alexander in all those films being sexy with other women and realizing that he was most definitely doing that in real life with many women as well affected her greatly. 

But she had no right to be jealous. She left him. Stone cold and now that she knew the truth it made it that much more regrettable. She can't take back the past though. 

She paused in her apartment bedroom for a moment and sat on her bed. She pulled out the photo she had hidden under her bed in a small box. "His box" is what she called it. There were a few memories in there from their past including this photo. It was on them in New York at Ground Zero. They had gone to remember on the anniversary of 9/11. Alexander had been in New York City when it happened. He had known people who had died. It meant a lot to him.  

The photo was on them holding hands and he was kissing the top of her head looking somber as they stood by the memorial. Jesse had taken it. He gave it to Emmalynn when it was developed because it was such a beautiful and powerful moment. He called it "The Memories Find Comfort" he had entered it in a gallery contest for their university and won a spot with it. 

Emmalynn put the photo in a frame she had in her closet and sat it by her bed. If he saw it that was okay. Maybe it would be a way for her to really tell him how she was ready to be with him again. 

To herself she said "Okay Em house is as clean as we will ever get it. Lyra is at mom and dad's for the night so no crazy pup. I have had my legs and other things waxed, makeup is on point. There is nothing else to do but...."

Just then she heard a soft knock and knew it was Alexander. She jumped up and started to bolt for the door in excitement but decided to slow at the last moment. She finally opened the door and smiled shyly at him. 

He was dressed in simple blue jeans and a t-shirt with Rutgers on it. 

Of course he would wear a school shirt. Meanwhile, she was dressed in a cute short blue dress and her hair and makeup done just right.

"Oh were we going out? I'm sorry I thought the plan was to hang out here" he said after looking her up and down.  To himself he thought Damn she looks so sexy!

"Oh no I just um" she was already stammering. 

"Where's the dog?" He asked as he came in and closed the door behind him. 

"Oh she is playing with Rascal at my parent's house" she said with a nervous giggle at the end. 

God he looks good she thought. Even with his hair a mess and those jeans hanging on his hips. Okay Em get it together play it cool. She took a shallow breath. 

He caught it. His eyebrow arched and he began to ask her what was up when she said "Alex I need to be honest with you. I made a huge mistake 10 years ago and I know that you have forgiven me and we are good now as friends but I... I can't just be your friend. I thought I could but after these last few months all I can think about is you. All I want is you. I want your kiss, your touch, your..."

He got the message even if she was saying it in a huge rush and he immediately leaned in and kissed her deeply. 

He had been holding it in for months and it was driving him crazy. His hands moved from her face to her shoulders then down to her hips and he pulled her flush with his body. He released the kiss but only for a moment to say "It's about damn time. I missed you so damn much." 

He walked her into her bedroom and they made up for 10 years.

It was different then before. It was more passionate. They had always had a great sex life but this. This was 10 years of wanting all summed up in 1 night. 

The next morning Emmalynn held on to Alexander like he was a life preserver and she was going to drown in the ocean without him. He was still sleeping exhausted from their marathon of lovemaking.

"I don't know how we will work all this out but we have to because I can't let you go again" she whispered.

"I can't either Em" he whispered back and opened his eyes. 

"Sorry I thought you were still asleep" she said shyly with a little blush tinting her cheeks as she stared at those big beautiful blue eyes she loved so much.

"I was but then I felt you stir. You probably don't remember but I was always very tuned into you. Em what changed?"

"Tess told me to get over it and realize that you are my one."

"Wow, blunt but yeah you're my one too. I mean I definitely don't think I can ever let you go after last night" he said as he winked at her and she blushed furiously. "Hey now don't you get shy on me. I've seen your body before and I have to say I like the older version even better than the young. You're so beautiful to me Em."

"You're the most handsome man alive Alex, but you already know that several magazines and the internet have said as much but I mean what about all the women who you.." she trailed off as she turned away for a second.

"Hey no. Don't let your mind do that. I didn't care about them not like I do you. They were a distraction and many of them knew it. I didn't want anyone else but you. I looked for you in every one of them."

" Really?" she said very uncertain. 

"Damn it Em can you really not tell that I still love you?" he said a little fluster but not angry.

"No I can. I can. " She said and kiss him again "I love you too. I don't think I ever stopped."

"Yeah my therapist said the same when I would talk about you. He asked if I really wanted to stop loving you and I lied and said yes but inside it was really no. I didn't want to let you go because I knew I would never love anyone like I do you. Honestly, if you hadn't of said all that last night I probably would have. My costar who you met the other day. He asked me for your number and I almost decked him."

"REALLY?! Luke Guinness wanted my number?" Emmalynn was shocked and flattered. He was definitely a hot actor but not as hot to her as Alexander. 

"Well if that's the way you feel maybe I should just.." and he began to get up. 

"Nope, no way. You get back here" she said as she pulled him back onto the bed. 

They sat for a few moments on the bed, naked, still basking in the after glow of the night they had, had as the morning rays of sun shown through the blinds on Emmalynn's windows. Later today he would have to go back to the city and begin prep work for the film. Everyone had shown up to start the process and he knew his days would be busy but now his nights would be filled with love. Her love. 

This is what he wanted, no, needed all this time. He felt himself being better just from this short time together. He considered how this would improve his day, his work, hell, his whole life. 

But while he was in total bliss, Emmalynn was starting to focus on the one nagging question that she knew could tear them apart again. Who would move to be closer to the other? Who would give up the life they love now to have the love of their life? She was starting to wonder if this had been the right choice in the end. 

He was beaming with joy and excitement as he looked at her and while her face was smiling her heart was anxious as could be.