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A Condition

Felix's pov:-

Thank god, today I don't have school. I'm currently curled up in my bed seeking the last bit of comfort from it. God! I can lay here the whole day and never get bored.

Mom and dad hasn't been the same since coming back from the Hwang mansion. They had been giving me guilty looks. I don't understand, what happened?... I had asked them about the weird stares, but mom broke down just as I asked.

I won't lie, I felt indeed uncomfortable but I wanted to know what happened at the Hwang mansion. I wanted to ask them myself but I was.. I didn't want to see my mom cry again.

So here I am, keeping my thoughts to myself. I should just go and ask them instead of overthinking.

"Felix.. " I was startled, mom and dad had came into my room.

"Yeah mom, what is it?" I asked as gently as I could.

"We have something to tell you honey." It was dad this time, he looked hesitant about the whole deal.

"You guys have been like this since yesterday.. You're making me worried, please tell me whatever it is.." I pleaded.

They both looked at each other, mom sighed and turned to me.

"You're getting married.. "

W-what... What kind of joke is this? I wanted to laugh, but judging from their expression they looked serious... What the fuck is going on. I can't tell if they're being for real now.

"W-what..." I shivered after a long period of zoning out.

"You are gonna get married to someone." Dad said... Very seriously.

That's when it hit me. This was not a joke like I wanted to believe, they were not kidding with me..

"I don't.. I can't u-understand..." I felt tears brimming the corners of my eye.

"Look son, this is a shocking news... I know.." Mom was already sobbing.

If she was sobbing that means she don't like this idea. If she didn't like this, then why is she asking me to do this? Hundreds of questions filled my mind.

"B-but why?" I managed to stutter out in an awfully quiet voice, I'm surprised they even heard it.

They told me everything. They told me about the deal they made. They told me about grandma's wish. They told me everything I needed to know.

The grandma I met yesterday wanted me to marry her grandson, Hwang Hyunjin.. I felt everything around me crash down. This was not right. Nothing about this was right. And before I knew it, I was in my father's arms, sobbing.

I hated to be this weak. I wanted to be strong, I wanted to tell them I'm not ready for this! But I couldn't bring myself to do that.. They put their trust in me as they made the deal, I couldn't possibly break it..

They took care of me all their life, it was finally time for me to pay back. But not in this way. I was too young to even think about marriage, that too an arranged one..

"Son, I know it's hard for you to process. This is very quick, but can you do this for us." Mom pleaded.

"Felix, we're not forcing you.. You don't have to do this if you don't want to.. But please consider this.. Please.." Dad said in a very heart broken voice, I couldn't bring myself to look at them. Would they feel disappointed when they knew my true feelings?

Every part of me screamed at me to reject it, but there was this small part in my body that wanted to give in to their offer. That part wanted to please my parents. Wanted to make them proud, it's not like they never were proud of me. They supported every decisions I made. Infact they were the best parents I could ever ask for...

"I-i need some time" I choked out.

"Take as much as time as you want, but please make your decision by the end of the day.. They'll be here tomorrow, to plan the wedding. So if you don't agree with this, I'll have to inform them.." Dad said.

"Felix.." Mom looked at me as she let out yet another heart broken sob, I hugged her as I cried.

"Look baby... I don't want you to think we're giving you up or trying to get rid of you. We just want the best for you... And I feel like Hyunjin can give you a better life.." Mom's words hit me like a thunder storm. How can a stranger make my life better?

"What do you mean mom?" I cried out. "Living with all of you is the best life for me.." I said through the never ending tears.

"I know baby... But you can't live with us forever.. You'll have to move out sooner or later, please forgive your mama for making you take a big decision like this. I'm so sorry Felix.." Mom hugged me even tighter, as if someone would take me away if she let me go.

Dad sat quietly as we all shared this miserable moment together.

"Lixie.." We all turned to the door to find a sobbing Olivia. I gestured for her to come closer to me, I opened both my arms widely. She came running to me and threw herself at me.

"Where are you going?" She asked innocently as we parted from the hug.

I bitterly smiled at her. I didn't know what to say, I didn't know how to tell her I'll be going far away from her.. I just didn't knew..

"Sweety, why don't go play with your toys huh.." Mom said to the 7 year old.

I could tell she didn't want to go. She passed me a concerned smile before walking out of the room. Olivia had always been very smart for her age.

My parents eventually left too, leaving me alone in the room. Well, not completely alone.. They left me with a shattered heart. And soon.. everything went dark.

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"...lix..felix.. Felix!" I opened my eyes hearing the shouts of my mom from downstairs.

Soon everything hit me like a train again, the seriousness of the situation swallowed me whole. I probably had fallen a sleep while making my decisions. I looked out the window, it was already dark outside.. How long have I been sleeping?

"Coming" I tried to yell back. I couldn't believe it was my own voice. It was hoarse unlike my soft and deep one. I chocked on my own saliva as the words left my mouth.

I carried my tired self out of my bedroom and slowly walked downstairs. I felt everyones eyes on me. But I still haven't decided what to say. It was just too much for me to intake.

I closed my eyes and took a deep breath. I thought about all the time my parents had sacrificed themselves for me and my sister. They were selfless and wanted the best of best for us. It was my duty to serve them back. Even if it made me sad, I wanted them to be happy. Even if I had to give fake smiles, I just wanted their real smiles and that itself will make me happy.

I know this was a big step in my life but I was ready to take it. Fate has decided this upon me and I will gladly take this. I let out a sigh and opened my eyes.

"Have you decided?" Dad softly asked.

"Yes, I am ready for this marriage." I spoke out loud. My voice echoed throughout the room and there was this unbearable silence.

Did I make the right choice by excepting the offer? Even if I didn't, I will still go along with this.. There is no point of being sad if I'm going to be spending the rest of my life with my husband. I should cherish every moment of my life and I'll try to love my husband with all my heart.

My thoughts were cut by my mom hugging me ever so lightly. I leaned into her touch seeking comfort in it. "Thank you baby.. Thank you so much" She said in a very bitter voice.

"I will, but on one condition."

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Another one of those cliff hangers. Also don't be shy to tell me if you liked this chapter. As I warned already, the first few chapters are gonna be boring shit. So please bare with it. I tried to make it enjoyable though...and please vote...

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