Faking it

Chapter Six

I laid on the couch just staring at the ceiling. I haven't went to school for the past 2 days. I've just been feeling sorry for myself at home.

All I could think about was Theo, all I wanted was Theo. I was just waiting for tomorrow, when I was supposed to be seeing him.

Tears started to pool in my eyes. Why was I feeling this way over a man, Theo of all men.

I stood up to walk to my bedroom and lay down in bed but as I reached my bedroom door, a light knock came to the door.

I stopped mid step and turned to face the door. Did I want to go open it? It's probably Lina and lord knows she'll let herself in.

I took a deep breath before walking to the door, unlocking it and pulling it open.

My eyes widened and I froze. "Hi" I mumbled quietly. "Hey.. I was concerned, you haven't been in class. You always come to class" I looked up at him with my teary eyes. "I just wasn't feeling it I guess".

I wanted to hug him and I was so excited on the inside but I couldn't show him that, because he did hurt me.

He took a step into my apartment and closed the door behind him. "Why are you crying Yujin?" I wiped my eyes quickly "I'm not".

He stepped closer to me and put both of his hands on my cheeks. "I'm sorry for the other day and I'm sorry for the way I've been treating you" I shrugged "it's fine". He squeezed my face a little harder "it's not fine, it's shitty" He stayed quiet and just looked into my eyes before pulling me into a tight hug.

"I missed your company. I'd gotten so used to being around you" I didn't say anything, just stayed quiet in his embrace, soaking up every second.

"I'm getting too attached to you" he whispered before pulling us apart.

That's what's happening to me, I'm getting too attached.

"Are you gonna say anything? Are you okay?" I took a deep breath "yeah I'm okay. I just... I missed you a lot" A small smile started to show on his lips.

We both stood there and stared at each other for what felt like forever before I spoke up. "Um since you're here, do you want to help me pick out a nice outfit for Saturday?" He bit his lip "things have changed a little bit, so it's not just a dinner at my parents place, it's a whole party at my dad's bosses house" "oh, so like I need something really nice to wear?" He nodded and smiled "like really nice, I guess there's gonna be a bunch of high profile people coming from his company".

I took a step back and gritted my teeth "Great. As if I wasn't nervous enough already". "I'm sorry, they didn't tell me until yesterday. Do you have anything to wear?" I shook my head "no, I'll have to go shopping for something, or I can just ask Lina. She'd definitely have something"

He took another step towards me "do you wanna go to Lina's and find something?" "I can later, after you leave" "let's go together" I looked up at him and smiled "Theo, she's gonna ask questions. I still haven't told her yet" "I want you to be prepared for Saturday though so you make the choice, we go buy you a nice new dress, or we go to Lina's"

I bit my lip at him and took a deep breath "I don't really have any extra money for a dress, so Lina's it is". I swiftly turned around to go to my room to change out of my pajamas but he grabbed my wrist and pulled me back around "um my parents gave me money for us to get nice outfits for the event, so we can go get something new if you'd like"

I smiled and cocked my head at him "your parents wanted to get me a new dress?" He smiled and nodded "yeah, they wanted you to get the best, me too" My heart began racing "they care a lot about your girlfriend without having even met her?" He scoffed "yeah, they think that if she's good enough for me, then she is for them too".

I started to instantly feel shitty. I knew the exact feeling too, it was guilt. I felt it in the pit of my stomach and in my chest. "But Theo.. I'm not your real girlfriend" "I know" he diverted his gaze downwards "it doesn't feel great, but I wasn't expecting this whole lie to feel good anyways. I hate lying to people, especially my parents"

I stood there for a second before excusing myself "I'm gonna go change, I'll be right back" He nodded in response and I disappeared into my room.

It felt horrible to use the money they gave him. It was for his girlfriend, and I am definitely not his.

I pulled some clothes out of my closet and dresser and changed before walking back out to him.

"Let's go to Lina's, I can't use your parents money. I'm not your real girlfriend and I just can't" His kind smile appeared "I love that you care about that, but my concern is that they might be able to tell a fancy new dress, from a nice used one"

I hadn't thought of that, but he was right. I groaned in agreement and sighed "ugh, fine. Let's go get new outfits!" He smiled and threw an arm around my shoulders. "Ready to go now?" I nodded with a smile and we made our way to the door.

We stood in the middle of a small shopping center, looking at the shops "I need to get a suit so we can go there first, then we need to get you a dress so then we can go into that store" he stated pointing to the buildings. We began heading into one of the stores so that Theo could find a suit.

He came out of the dressing room with his 3rd suit option. A sleek white suit that fit his frame perfectly and made his skin tone pop. My eyes lit up once he came into view and I smiled "that's the one for sure, it looks fantastic on you"

He shot me a sly smile before turning to the full body mirror and straightening the suit out. "Let's go with this one then, I'm tired of trying things on" I giggled at his words and stood up and approached him.

I threw my arms around his shoulders and smiled "you look really great Theo" his body stiffened at my touch and he looked me in the eyes, staring intensely.

We stared at each other for a few more seconds before I shook my head "go change out of that, and let's get to the other store, hm?" He smiled and nodded, slowly backing away, my arms dropping slowly.

As we walked through the aisles of fancy dresses, I began to feel overwhelmed, I had never owned a dress like this and taking looks down at the price tags made me remember why I never had one.

I brought my hand up to the fabric and let it touch each dress, contemplating which one I wanted to go with. I already had 4 options, in which Theo was holding for me.

"Are there any you really liked?" He paused before looking around "you want my opinion?" I smiled and nodded, waiting for him to answer. "There was this really nice Navy blue dress just over here. I saw it and thought it would look good on you".

I shuffled closer to him and grabbed the other dresses out of his hand "let's go grab that one, I wanna try it on". I followed shortly behind him as he grabbed it off of the rack, and we began to make our way to the dressing room.

"Okay Theo, I'm gonna show you your choice now" I slowly pushed the curtain out of my way and walked over to him.

His eyes widened and his mouth fell open slightly. "Wow.. you look great Yujin" I smiled at his words and began to feel my cheeks heating up. He stood up, and approached me "I needed a closer look" he said, rubbing the back of his neck nervously.

He just stood there staring at me, his eyes roaming all over my body "I think you should get this one, you'll definitely turn some heads and I think my parents would love it.. but that's up to you though! You can pick whichever dress" I smiled at him "well I liked this one the most anyways, I'll get this one" His eyes lit up "awesome".

I laughed softly "okay I'm gonna go change and then we can buy this and get out of here! I'm done shopping for the day" he just nodded in response as I turned to walk away, my cheeks heating up. No one has ever looked at me the way he did, it almost looked like he was in awe and that made my heart beat uncontrollably.