Don't Look Down

Old Habits

Naomi's P.O.V

I couldn't believe what just happened. I shouldn't have done that. If anyone finds out I'm dead and what if Ellie finds out?

As I arrived home my phone started ringing.

E: How is my little whore? Did you enjoy your little date with Martin?

N: What the hell? Ellie what do you want?

E: Back off Martin or else.

N: Or else what?

E: Remember your contract? Well a friend of mine works at Spinnin Records, I wouldn't want to take the contract away from you. Have a goodnight...

I couldn't take it anymore! Why was this happening to me? The kiss was just a one-time thing, I didn't even mean for it to happen. Would Ellie really do that to me?

I turned my laptop on and went on twitter. I couldn't believe my eyes...

@naomi2000 I guess a whore always needs to shine! :*

What is wrong with her? If anything she's the whore. She was with Martin AND Mark at the same time! I shut my laptop and went in the shower. As I was opening the cabinet my razor fell out. I haven't cut for a whole year, but something told me that today the record will be broken. I grabbed the razor, lit on some candles, played some music and started making small, yet deep cuts. I couldn't believe I was literally cutting for the same reasons I did a year ago. Last year I was really self-conscious of my body and I also had lost some friends that I was really close with and the only remedy I found was self-harm. 

Funny enough I felt better when I cut. I cleaned up the bath and got into bed guess old habits never do die.