𝐒𝐰𝐞𝐞𝐭 𝐍𝐨𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐠

𝐬𝐢𝐱.

𝐒𝐰𝐞𝐞𝐭 𝐍𝐨𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐠
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Taylor's pov

I don't know why I felt like doing it, but, I did. I thought maybe, just maybe, god would be on our side, just this once but the odds were that I would be met with the same result every time, like we always had. Despite that, I went ahead and did it anyway, what was to lose? I could do this with my eyes closed at this point, i couldn't even count on two hands how many times I've taken a pregnancy test. I routinely did what you had to do, before leaving it on the bathroom counter. I couldn't be bothered to sit and wait for the answer so I left it and went back to my music room.

I'd almost forgotten about it an hour later, being so absorbed in the music, and at one point, I deemed it pointless to check, certain I would get the same result as I always had. Negative. I didn't even leave the suspension I normally would when taking a pregnancy test, usually I'd have to build the courage, but I knew I was foolish for even taking one, so I wasn't expecting much of an answer. Flipping it, not even holding my breath, I opened my eyes, gasping the loudest I probably ever had. Pregnant.

" what? what the fuck? " I stuttered, going to rummage through my draw to take a second test. This surely had to be a false positive. Once again, I got the same result and i cupped my face, sobbing intensely. This had been everything I ever wanted, but right now, now this wasn't the right time. My stomach erupted in fear too, I remember what the doctor said, it would be so hard to carry a baby to term, I couldn't get my hopes up on this. Not yet.

I had to tell Travis. I knew he was filming a podcast but that could wait, this, this couldn't wait. I rushed to his office, not even knocking before I swung the door open.

" you okay baby? " he whispered, seeing me stood awkwardly in the doorway.

" I need you " i state bluntly and he rose his eyebrows in confusion. " like now " i said with more urgency.

" I'll be back Jas, hold up " he whipped his headphones off, i abruptly took his hand and dragged him into our bedroom, into our en suite. Travis opened my mouth to talk, but whatever he was about to say was soon answered, when he looked down, his jaw dropping in shock.

" please say something " I muttered, unable to hold back tears. This was so overwhelming. Of course it was everything we've wanted but it just was not the right time.

" I-I don't know what to say, are you happy? " he asked

" fuck I don't know trav, yes, I think. This is what we've always wanted but, but I'm also angry. We've tried so hard, for so long and the moment we decide to stop, it's happens, how is that fair? " tears roll down my cheeks.

" I know baby, I hear you. But, this, it's good right? We can be happy. It doesn't even mean we have to stop looking to adopt " he spoke truthfully

" I'm just so scared Trav, she said, she said it'd be rare for me to ever carry a baby to term, what if our baby doesn't make it " that was my biggest fear, something happening to my baby.

" shhh Tay, you don't know anything is going to happen for sure, let's just keep our hopes high yeah? "

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(trigger warning)