When You're Bound To Love

Chapter 146

SPHO**

Lakhe lay in his bed, still and unresponsive. Like I'd seen him in my vision. The white woman was banging on the locked door making it very difficult to focus. I'd spent the last four hours praying violently and I was exhausted by now. I had candles lit in the bedroom to illuminate natural light instead of opening windows. Me: "God. You created Masilakhe. You know the inner depths of him. The number of hairs on his head. The alignment of tissue and fiber in his body. YOU are His creator, nobody else. I ask that rebuke all spirits that reside in his body dear Lord. Heal his soul and put together the brokenness. You are Jehovah-Rapha, the God who heals. You are the one with the final word. We come to You asking for divine healing and strength. I ask for your angels to descend and create new breath through his lungs and new life." "Why are you weak." I opened my eyes and saw Queen Mother sitting on the bed. I could not help but feel irritated. She always appeared when she felt like it and left me to deal with a problem until the last moments. Me: "I am not weak. I am tired." Mother: "Masilakhe is relying on your power only." Me: "Masilakhe knows I'm trying my best. This baby is weighing me down." Lakhe: "The baby is not your master." I looked at him. He had his eyes open. I knelt next to him. Lakhe: "You've been praying for hours." Me: "I need to help you heal properly." Lakhe: "I feel better." He closed his eyes. I looked at Queen Mother. Me: "I'm sorry I snapped at you." Mother: "Hold him." I held Lakhe's hands. Mother: "He needs you strong. Hold on to him." I looked at him. Mother: "The next few months will be difficult Spho. You will need to take care of yourself, your children and your husband." Me: "Ex. We're divorced." Mother: "Be that as it may, you'll still take care of him. He has no one else but you. You're Queen of Pure blood, my angel. Caring for someone is in your blood. Look how you've destroyed the Evil aura in this bedroom. It is soaked in love because of you. Do not lose that element of yourself. It will protect you from the unborn King." And she disappeared. Lakhe: "Please hold me." Me: "I am holding you." Lakhe: "I can't feel it Spho." I climbed on the bed next to him and snuggled him in between my legs with his head on my chest. I brushed his head silently. Me: "Father I'm giving you my all, worship at your feet. We come to Your presence. Our hearts yearn for you. We're singing for your glory, we are praising You dear father. Cover our family with the blood of Jesus Christ. Bring us Lord, to the place where you're vacant. We want to feel your love. We want to be touched by your grace. Dearest Comforter of the troubled, alleviate our worry and sorrow with Your gentle love, and grant us the grace and strength to accept this burden. We place our worries in Your hands. We ask that You restore Your servant to health again." Lakhe: "He's gone." I sighed in relief. Me: "Repeat after me. Dear Lord, it is my will to surrender to you everything that I am and everything that I'm striving to be." Lakhe: "Dear Lord, it is my will to surrender to you everything that I am and everything that I'm striving to be." Me: "I open the deepest recesses of my heart and invite Your Holy Spirit to dwell inside of me. I offer you my life, heart, mind, body, soul and spirit." Lakhe: "I open the deepest recesses of my heart and invite Your Holy Spirit to dwell inside of me. I offer you my life, heart, mind, body, soul and spirit." Me: "I surrender to you my past, present and future problems. I ask You to take hold over every aspect of my life. I surrender to You all my hurt, pain, worry, doubt, fear and anxiety, and I ask You to wash me clean. I release everything into Your compassionate care." Lakhe: "I surrender to you my past, present and future problems. I ask You to take hold over every aspect of my life. I surrender to You all my hurt, pain, worry, doubt, fear and anxiety, and I ask You to wash me clean. I release everything into Your compassionate care." Me: "Amen." Lakhe: "Amen." Me: "I need to let Miss Body builder in before she calls the cops." Lakhe: "In who's house?" Me: "Still. I have to go home. The kids are waiting." Lakhe: "You can't leave me here by myself Spho. Please. I am begging you." Me: "The children need me. And we're not together." Lakhe: "The children are safe with Dubs. I know we're not together anymore. My mom and dad live together still and they're divorced too. We are not that complicated. This house is massive enough as is...and..." he coughed. Me: "I was wondering where you're getting all that confidence to speak regularly when you've just avoided the grave. You are the most stubborn person to die." Lakhe: "Funny." Me: "I hear what you're saying Lakhe but it's not a good idea." Lakhe: "Are you afraid that you're going to want me? It is rather troubling." Me: "I don't want you. I'm not going to." Lakhe: "Oh... you think I'll seduce you?" Me: "No." I couldn't bring myself to say to tell him. Lakhe: "Then what is it?" Me: "We're going to confuse the kids." Lakhe: "I don't understand that but okay. I'll just have to accept your decision." Me: "Niny can come stay with you-" Lakhe: "You mean the demon? Wow." Me: "Niny is not a demon and you know that!" Lakhe: "I don't care. The fact that he was a part of them traumatized me enough Spho. I do not want those things near me! Look, I almost died twice!" Me: "Okay. Graham then?" Lakhe: "You mean your ex's best friend." Me: "Graham has helped Siyanda thoroughly. He's prayed for and with him. He healed him daily after the demons took off." Lakhe: "I am not Siyanda." Me: "Why are you so stubborn? You wanted to be healed and now you don't? You need to make a decision Masilakhe do you want those things to creep up on you again and kill you. Or do you want to raise your kids peacefully and LIVE." Lakhe: "How could you even ask me that!!" Me: "I have to because you're acting crazy. Why are you so stubborn? Even Sandile prays now." Lakhe: "Sandile doesn't even believe in God. You don't know what he's mumbling." I chuckled. Lakhe: "Thank you for taking care of me and the kids. I don't say it enough but you are incredible. Not just as a mother but in every aspect of life. I truly appreciate you. I want our daughter to be just like you. We have to protect her. God, I hope we have a daughter." Lakhe: "Don't stress please. The baby will be okay. I guess I have to learn how to pray." Me: "You're right." Lakhe: "You're still stressing." Me: "Of course I am. Our baby be full dark. Imagine what he'll do to Lam-" Lakhe: "I will never let that happen. Ever." Me: "I have been praying every single day since I came back from hospital. Yet there's no indication that this baby will be pure." Lakhe: "It's still early to tell. We have 8 months ahead to prepare. Anything can happen." Me: "I'm just tired Lakhe. Everything happens a tad little late for me. I have to fight and grovel the whole time." Lakhe: "Nothing good ever comes easy. Look at you. You were difficult for me in our relationship because you challenged me a lot. I couldn't take it so I acted out childishly." Me: "Thank you for admitting that." Lakhe: "But you had your moments too." Me: "I wasn't childish." Lakhe: "You were childish and you know it." I giggled. He pulled himself up. Me: "You okay?" I helped him to my side. Lakhe: "Yeah." Me: "Should I call Graham?" Lakhe: "Sure." He looked away. Me: "I left Sandile with the kids. Sooner or later he will panic. You know him." Lakhe: "So he can stay with you but I can't." Me: "He just rocked up at my door. He was afraid Komander left his demons in his place." Lakhe: "So he gets shelter and I don't." Me: "Who's being childish now?" Lakhe: "Sandile." Me: "Must I leave?" Lakhe: "Of course, all three of your babies are waiting." I looked at him. He was hurt. Me: "I'll stay until you're asleep and safe." he smiled. Lakhe: "I'm kidding. Go home. I'm feeling much better. Nothing will get through the barrier you just created for me." Me: "Are you sure?" he stretched in the bed, yawning. Lakhe: "Very sure, my queen." ...