16.
I was meeting Brad for breakfast this morning and it was fair to say that I'm incredibly nervous. What am I supposed to say to him?
I told the girls that I'm meeting him and they kindly wished me good luck. I take a glance at myself in the mirror once more before stepping out of the door. I take the elevator down to the lobby and see him waiting by the front desk. He shoots my a small smile as he sees me walking towards him.
"Shall we go?" He says quietly, guiding me into a taxi. As we walk out of the hotel, screams abrupt from all directions. Somehow fans always seem to find out where the boys stay.
We reach a small cafe outside of the town centre, Brad pays the driver and we both get out. We get seated by a window and we order some breakfast. I order some pancakes but to be honest, I was too nervous to eat anything right now.
"I just want to say sorry again for everything. I was such an idiot and all those words I said last night, I truly mean't, they weren't just drunken thoughts. I still do really like you Grace." He says, putting his hand on top of mine which actually relaxes me a little.
"You hurt me Brad, you really did. But I accept your apology. I don't want it to be awkward between us any more." I say, looking up at him.
"Good, I'm glad. Can we try again?" He says, sounding hopeful.
"I want to, I do. I just need some time, okay?" I say, as our food arrives.
"Yeah, that's understandable. I'm just so glad we're okay again." He says, smiling at me widely.
"Me too." I say, smiling back.
That actually wasn't too bad.
Brad's P.O.V
"I just want to say sorry again for everything. I was such an idiot and all those words I said last night, I truly mean't, they weren't just drunken thoughts. I still do really like you Grace." I say, cautiously putting my hand on top of hers.
"You hurt me Brad, you really did. But I accept your apology. I don't want it to be awkward between us any more." She says, looking up at me. Why did this have to happen? I didn't mean to hurt her.
"Good, I'm glad. Can we try again?" I sigh, hoping for her to say yes.
"I want to, I do. I just need some time, okay?" She says, as our food arrives on the table. My heart sinks a little before I put on a big smile again. I needed to give her time. But long will I have to wait for her to trust me again?
I still feel awful for what I've done even though she's accepted my apology. I somehow managed to hurt two girls feelings in this whole situation. Firstly, hurting Grace and I hurt Lauren too.
*Flashback*
"Who was that song for?" Lauren says, as I run off stage for a quick drink of water before the next song.
"Can we talk about it after please?" I say, quickly wiping my sweaty forehead with a towel whilst clutching a cold water bottle.
"It was for Grace wasn't it." She says, her voice becoming shaky and her eyes filling up with tears.
"Laure-" I say, before a voice shouts for me to go back on stage.
After we finish Can We Dance we all quickly grab out stuff and make our way onto the tour bus to avoid getting mobbed by any fans. As I'm about to step on the bus, Grace storms off.
"Grace?" I say as she walks away faster. I didn't even now she was coming tonight. For a moment I think to run after her but Alice takes the opportunity before I can.
Before I step onto the bus,I hear a voice from behind me. I turn around to see Lauren, looking more upset than she did before.
"Well?" She says, a tear rolling down her cheek. I didn't need to say who it was for, she already knew.
"We need to go on the bus." I say, turning around and walking onto the bus. The boys, Amy and her Fran were already sat down, ready to go. I sit down next to Connor, allowing a space for Lauren to sit down.
She sits down next to me and keeps her head down from the others. I mouth to Connor to take the others out of the small room for a second. He quickly nods and guides everyone out.
Now we could talk.
"Just say it Brad." She says, the tears now pouring for eyes.
"I didn't mean for this to happen Lauren, I didn't mean to get you involved. I just-" I say before she interrupts me.
"JUST SAY IT BRAD." She shouts, making me jump a little. I stay silent for a moment, not knowing how to start.
"You still like her don't you?" She says, looking into my eyes this time. I look down, feeling ashamed that I've made her feel this way.
"Don't you?" She says, the words becoming barely audible.
"I'm sorry, I do." I say, keeping my head down.
"Fuck this." She says, grabbing her bag and storming out of the room.
"Lauren please." I say, trying to stop her from going.
"Fuck you, Brad." She cries, her face wet with tears.
How did I manage this? I managed to ruin my relationship with two amazing girls in the space of a few months. I don't know what was wrong with me lately.
*End of Flashback*
