I still haven't said anything since I found out Justin passed away. Not just that, I've also completely isolated myself in my pitch black room. The only reason anyone can tell I'm in there is my music playing.
They autopsied Justin and found out he had an inlarged heart valve and that's what caused him to pass away. Today is his funeral so I have to leave my room for not only the funeral but apparently we have to meet with a lawyer before the service.
I pulled myself up out of bed and it pained me to do so. Every movement felt like I was carrying an extra 1,000 pound blanket as I got up and got dressed in my all black suit and put on my sunglasses. I walked out of my room and made my way to the living room before I was greeted by Bob, Angela, and Lexi.
Angela: J, baby you look so handsome.
I just nodded as a way to say "thank you" without actually saying it. I just don't want to talk anymore at all even to Lexi. Speaking of Lexi, she walked up to me. When we were close we both mutually reached out and I pulled Lexi into a tight hug. I just held her in my arms for a while because the only thing that seems to help me is when Lexi looks at me, talks to me, or touches me. We finally pulled away before I looked in Lexi's eyes behind my sunglasses.
Lexi: Are you okay Jack Jack?
I nodded to answer Lexi. I hated that I couldn't tell her no but I didn't want her to worry more then she already is. The only thing that could make me feel worse is seeing Lexi sad.
Bob: Are you ready Buddy?
I once again nodded before we all left the house and got in the car. I sat in the back and Lexi sat in the middle. I rested my head against the car door as Lexi rested her head on my shoulder. I stared out the window during the ride to the lawyers office.
We got to the office before we all got out of the car. I walked behind Bob and Angie and Lexi into the lawyers office. They checked in before we were called back to John Robinson's office. We walked into the office before the door was shut.
John: Okay so first off, JJ I'm so sorry for your loss.
I just shrugged before I nodded in response.
Angela: He's always been very soft spoken but ever since he got the news, he's been mute.
John: Oh I totally understand. He's known me since he was a baby and I saw how close J and Justin was. I won't keep you all here long because I know it's Justin's funeral and J needs to go say his goodbye. Basically, we're all here to go over Justin's will. It's actually very simple and easy, JJ here got everything Justin had. The only thing in question is the question of JJ's custody. It states here that he can choose either you guys or his grandmother. Seeing as how J is 14, he can pick whoever he wants anyway but it was stated in the will that he gets to make the decision. He can just tell me and I'll make sure it's done.
After John finished, all eyes were on me. I looked from John to Bob, Angela, and Lexi.
Angela: J...baby. We totally understand and respect whatever decision you make and we love you no matter what. We just want you to know that if you'd like too, we'd love to have you live with us.
I looked one last time before I pointed to Bob, Angela, and Lexi.
John: You want to live with them Buddy?
I nodded in response.
John: Consider it done Buddy.
I walked over and hugged Lexi tightly. The gravity of the situation really began to sink in at that moment. All I wanted was to hold Lexi in my arms.
John: Buddy, there's some things here you need to sign with the adults here and you guys can go.
I broke the hug before I walked up to his desk. I along with Bob and Angela signed some documents and I set my pen down. After the documents were signed, John pulled out a box and a letter and slid them to me.
