Complete Pt. 1: A piece of light || Hyunlix

15: Secret secret

Felix's pov:

"What movie do you want to watch?" Hyunjin asked me and took the remote from the table.

"You can choose. Everything is fine for me, until it's not a horror movie." I said.

Hyunjin nodded and started to look for a movie. At the same time I opened the lid of the case and opened the bag of chips.

When I was ready, I looked at Hyunjin. He pushed his hand through his long, black hair and pursed up his lips with a contemplative look on his face as he scrolled through the movies. His sharp side-profile looked even more handsome against the light of the TV-screen.

I wanted to tell him about my feelings, but it was easier said than done. I had no idea, if he felt the same way about me or not. I was super nervous about it. What if he doesn't like me that way and when I tell him he doesn't even want to be friends anymore?

I took a little sigh and took a pillow, that was laying on the couch next to me. I hugged it, imagining that it was his body.

After a moment Hyunjin put the movie on and sat beside me on the couch. He grabbed a brownie from the case and took a bite of it. I watched him in tension as he chewed it. Then se suddenly closed his eyes and fell backwards. I had a fright. Had I accidentally poisoned him or something?

"What's wrong?" I asked in horror.

"These brownies are just too good. From now on every time you come here, you're better to have these with you." he said while opening his eyes and giving me a warm smile.

I laughed in relief. Hyunjin got up and started the movie. We paid our attention to the movie and a silence surrounded us. Apart from the noises of the movie and the silent sound of chips crunching between my teeth it was quiet.

After a while I felt something leaning against me. I turned my head and saw that it was Hyunjin, who leaned his head against my shoulder. My heart did a little jump.

I could feel how his body wasn't completely relaxed, but I didn't know why. I leaned my head gently against his, hoping that it would make him feel less tensed. It didn't work instantly, but after a while I felt his body relaxing against my shoulder. I smiled and peeked at his face. He had his eyes closed.

"Did you fall asleep?" I asked, not waiting for an answer. Hyunjin didn't reply or move a bit. I could hear him breathing heavily. He had really fallen asleep.

I was quiet for a moment and looked at the sleeping boy next to me. He must've been really tired. He still looked pretty while sleeping.

Some intrusive thoughts started to take over my mind. Inside my head they sounded tempting, but they were way too stupid for me to actually do. 

'Or are they? Hyunjin is sleeping, he will never find out...'

"It looks like you really did fall asleep. I hope that you're not just pretending now, because if you are actually awake, this will be awkward." I chuckled.

Then I leaned my face closer to his head. I could smell the fresh smell of his hair. I pulled my face slowly so close to his head, that I could've bit his ear if I wanted to. When my mouth almost touched his head, I started to hesitate. What if he was actually wide awake? What was my excuse to do this?

'It doesn't matter now. I'm better to do it when I've already started.' I thought and pushed the unsure thoughts aside. I landed my lips softly on his temple and pecked it.

I only held my lips still for a moment and the pulled my head back. I held my breath nervously. A part of me waited for him to lift his head and ask, what the fuck I was doing. But it didn't happen. He kept his head against my shoulder. His body didn't flinch a bit.