Complete Pt. 1: A piece of light || Hyunlix

19: Starry night

Hyunjin's pov:

"W-what?"

'WHAT??'

I stared at the blonde boy. I thought that he was joking at first, but his serious and a bit awkward facial expression said everything. My face looked probably stunned, but it showed only 1% of the storm of shock inside my head. I had to take a moment for my brain to process the question I had just heard.

"Can I kiss you? It's either yes or no." he repeated his question.

He had asked, if he could kiss me.

HE, like... ANOTHER MALE?

I could feel how each and every word, that Taehyung had used to describe the terribility of everyone in the LGBTQ-community, started to echo inside my head. Most of them were things like: "Don't trust them" and "They're all freaks". But the clearest and loudest of them all covered all the other noises in my head under it and screamed:

"Guys do NOT kiss other guys!"

'But... why?'

It was like a little ray of sun had pierced through the dark clouds covering my mind. A simple question, but so meaningful. I started to think about Taehyungs words more deeply.

'Why couldn't I kiss him? Shouldn't I be able to kiss anyone I want, if both of us want it?'

'If both of us want it... but do I want it?'

I hadn't ever had a kiss with a guy before. I haven't ever even thought that I would be something other than straight. But if I kiss a boy just for once, that doesn't automatically turn me into gay, right?

I focused my glance back to Felix. The silence surrounding us hadn't lasted more than a couple of seconds, but if I didn't answer quickly, the moment would become even more awkward.

My glance slid from his beautiful eyes to his freckled cheeks, cute nose and finally reached his lips. It felt like I could see them properly for the first time. Now his heartshaped lips looked softer and...more kissable than they had ever been...

"Yes."

That one little word broke the tension between us. I raised my look back to Felix's eyes. I don't know, if I was just imagining things, but I could've sworen that I saw his eyes lightning. They were like two little candles.

But when Felix had gotten my permission, he didn't delay for long. The corner of his mouth turned slightly up to a tiny smile. He let go of my hand and let his fingers run up my sleeve to my shoulder and up my neck to the side of my head with his thumb on my temple and other fingers laying on the back of my head. He took a little step closer and pulled his head closer to mine.

I could feel my heart beating in my ears. I had no idea, what I was doing and why. I complied the moves of the blonde and put my hand on his shoulder while pulling myself closer to him. I closed my eyes. He was so close that I could feel his breath on my face. I tilted my head to the right and...

Our lips finally met.

Felix opened his lips and kissed my mouth gently as his fingers pushed through my hair. His touch made the chills run up my back. He separated his lips from mines, but just for a hundredth of a second, so he could grab some air before diving back into the kiss.

My ego told me to stop before something would go terribly wrong, but I didn't care. A power coming from deep down my heart kept me still in the kiss. I didn't hate it, not at all. Even according to my insignificant kissing-experience I could tell that Felix was a great kisser. The way his lips smacked against mines made my stomach flutter the way I hadn't ever felt before. Our lips were like two pieces of a puzzle attached together.