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It's been four weeks since Kai had told me about how he felt. I never thought about him like that. I honestly thought we were just friends. I didn't run away because I didn't feel the same way. I ran away because I didn't know how I felt.
I never put any thought into it, that's why I thought we were friends. Kai tried texting me but I ignored his messages. I usually hang out in the library now. One day I tried to sit with Kai at lunch, but he tried to talk about Saturday and I wasn't ready. I can't believe I never saw the signs.
The more I thought about it, the more obvious it got. We have one class together, but we sit far away. I catch him looking at me, but I never look back. I do feel bad for running off. That kiss was so unexpected that I couldn't help it. Ivy hasn't said anything about me and Kai. Which is really surprising because I thought she would tell Cerise and Cerise tells everyone about everything.
Ivy and I try to avoid eye contact but sometimes it slips. I don't think we will ever get over what happened in the library. I know that Ivy has always hated me and I don't really know why. Debate, I guess. I don't really have a problem with her but she tries to cause problems with me and I don't tolerate that. I may have embarrassed her in class but her sister hurt my brother. Something she didn't even know about. I wonder if she told Iris that she knows. She probably didn't because she loves her wicked sister too much.
In history class I was bored out of my mind so I just stared around the room. Once I laid eyes on Kai I started to black out and think about Saturday and how our "friendship" was a lie. I didn't realize I have been staring at him for what felt like 10 minutes. He started to look at me funny and he mouthed the words,
"Are you okay?"
I slowly nodded my head because I felt so embarrassed and stupid. He looked at me for a while with a concerned expression on his face but then he continued taking notes. That night, I finally texted him.
C: Hey.
He read my message but waited a while to answer.
K: Hi.
Gosh, what am I doing?
C: So..
K: So.
C: I'm really sorry Kai.
K: I know. You said that when you ran away.
I deserved that.
C: I didn't mean to run away. I just never thought about us that way.
He kept typing but he would delete it right after. It took five minutes for him to text me
back.
K: Have you thought about it now?
Crap.
C: I thought about a lot. yk?
K: I guess. Can we talk about it?
I knew he was going to say that. Why did I even text him?
C: Over text?
K: You want to talk in person?
Honestly, I really don't. But I rather do that than over text.
C: Sure. Can I come over?
K: Uh..Okay
Here we go. It's now or never.
When I arrived at his house it was already getting really dark. When he opened the door, he looked really tired and upset. Before I walked in, I looked to see if Ivy was spying on us again. Thankfully she wasn't.
We sat down on the couch, as far away from each other as we can. Kai laughed and rubbed his face with his hands.
"This is stupid," he said.
I laughed. "Yeah."
"So, what have you thought about in four whole weeks?" Kai asked me.
I tried to think of something to say but nothing crossed my mind.
"I thought about it a lot , Kai. I have never thought of it before so I wasn't ready and it took me by surprise. Now that I had time to think about it..."
I started to lose my thoughts and we both listened to the awkward silence. I was scared. I was scared of what I was thinking about and how I was feeling. I don't know how to explain it. All I can say is that I'm scared. No, I'm terrified. Why? I'll never really know. I could tell Kai really wanted me to finish my sentence but I couldn't.
I stood up from the couch and Kai followed. I started to pace around the room, trying to think.
"Are you okay?" He looked nervous.
"I don't know."
I finally stopped and took a good look at my best friend. Yeah, my best friend. The one who has been there since third grade. The one who has always been there for me when no one else was. The one who was so kind that I never understood it. I didn't see the perfect high schooler who everyone adores. I saw my best friend and I knew right then what I wanted. I walked up to Kai and I kissed him. When I let go, he looked confused, but then he kissed me back.
(866 words- erm I got kinda confused on what I was doing and thought it was boring so erm yeah- ima have the character descriptions out soon!!! I'll probably just keep on posting a lot-)
