The Mafia's Blessing

~9~

Jungkook's eyes widened in shock as he heard your answer. He couldn't believe he had a son. He had missed so much of Junwoo's life. Jungkook felt torn inside, he had so many emotions and he didn't know how to handle them.

"I...can't believe I missed out on four years of my son's life..." he whispered, his voice  full of hurt and regret.

You didn't know what to say to him. You felt it was partially your fault he missed out on seeing his son grow. Deep down you know Jungkook understands the reason why you left but it still hurt him.

He looked down at his hands, staring at his clenched fist. Jungkook understood why you left and why you kept his son from him all these years. But at the end of the day, he still missed the first four years of his life, something he could never get back.

"Why... why didn't you tell me about him...?" he asked, his voice trembeling a bit. 

Your body reacted to his trembeling voice. It brought back memories of you both together and how you used to care for him while he confided in you...

But you quickly shake the feeling away... he hurt you and lied to you for a year. And you wouln't give in to him so easily. 

"You... you have no right to ask me that, Jungkook. You should know why... why I... left. I wasn't going to allow him to grow up in the dangerous environment you lived in. I did it to protect him from...you and your father." you said, tears threatening to escape your eyes.

Jungkook's hurt and disappointment suddenly turned in to anger. He couldn't believe that you just accused him of being a danger to his own flesh and blood. He scoffed at your comment, his fist now tightly clenched at his sides.

"You don't think I could have taken care of my own son?? I didn't want to keep anything from you but you didn't give me an opportunity to explain." he retorted, his voice raising in frustration.

"You are a murderer Jungkook! What did you expect me to do in that moment huh??? I had to find out the truth about you, from your father!!!" you felt yourself getting angry and you didn't want Junwoo seeing you like this. You tried calming yourself down.

Junkook's breath fekt heavier as you accused him of being a murderer. It wasn't something he was proud of but it was a part of his life he grew up in. His eyes darkened as rage started building up inside him.

"Don't you think I would have told you if I had the opportunity!? I didn't have a choice Y/N! FUCK! I... couldn't tell you... I didn't want to involve you in that part of my life..." he hissed, his voice laced with annoyance.

You sighed. "I don't want to argue Jungkook. You came here for answers rigth? Let's leave the past in the past... for Junwoo." you said.

He sighed, running a hand through his messy hair. He knew this wasn't the time for him to lash out and let his emotions get the best of him. He had more important things to deal with right now.

"You're right Y/N, I'm sorry" he said finally, his voice a bit calmer than before. He took a moment to collect himself before asking the question weighing on his mind since he found out about Junwoo.

"What is he like?"