Experience (sequel to innocence)

Expectations..

Lily's pov :

Transitioning has been harder than I thought . It's five am . I went to bathroom because my bladder felt like it was gonna pop. I step out and I hear muffling coming from my living room. Paige is sleeping on the couch . Her feet dangling a bit off constantly. "Lily..no..stay...Lily.." she mumbles. I walk closer and see the sweat forming in her forehead.

"Mm no..wait..I'm..coming..Lily.." she says repeatedly she suddenly wakes up sweating and panting. I touch her shoulder and she flinched. "Hey I'm here" she swings me on her and hugs me. I've never seen this side . Azzi told me Paige never slept while I was gone . But I didn't know how bad it ever was until this week . She has more bad dreams than I do .

"I'm sorry ..go back to sleep I'm okay" I rub her back and I feel her relax . I know she has had her needs and just suppresses them. She gets up and goes into the bathroom. After ten minutes I hear the shower go on. I contemplate for two minutes. Get a grip Lily. She's your girlfriend.

I take my foot off the cast . I move it around and walk on it . It's way better than what it was . I walk into the bathroom and I see Paige under the water soaking her face. She didn't hear the door open and I get undressed. I open the shower door and slide in. She still doesn't seem to notice. I put my hair in a bun. I breathe in.

I look at her body up and down and lord she's effortlessly gorgeous. I place my hands on her neck and she jumps a bit . "Fuck Jesus Christ" I'm lost in those perfect blue eyes . "Lily this may not be the best idea for you ...I don't want you to do things just because you think I expect them I'm okay truly" she says as she looks at me .

"Just be patient with me" I say . My hands trace down her check and I kiss in between her breast and I hear her heavy breathing . Her muscles tense . My hands stop at her abs and god she's just sexy . "Lily.." she says softly. I lean in and pull her face into mine .she kisses me and I slip my fingers into her and she moans . I pump my fingers in her at a medium speed. "God Lily ...we don't have to ...do this..fuck." I start kissing her neck "do you want me to stop" I quicken my pace. "Fuck no...damit..I....shit what the fuck....lily...I'm gonna cum."

"Cum for me bueckers" she lets out a breathe and moans . It's the best sound ever. She releases my fingers and I slip them out under the water. She leans on the wall facing away from me . "You didn't have to do that" she says softly. I wasn't comfortable completely but I know she needed me. She showers and lets me shower and she gets out. Didn't do sum wrong..

😑 yalll idk what's up with these chapters I've had writer blocks because I truly don't know how to end this without there being a cliff hanger and possibly a part three but ion wanna do that to yall 😭💕⬇️💕⬇️💕