Lovesick

A guest

i walk into the room and close the door behind me, i got out my clothes for the day: same black baggy denim jeans as the day before with a black merch t-shirt of an old artist i used to listen to. i decide to get changed in the bathroom since Callia might want to grab her phone from her room or grab something else, i awkwardly walk to the bathroom a little down the hall from her trying my best not to interrupt her mums meeting call.

i put on my clothes as quick as i can, 'she's probably waiting for me! what if she wants to talk to me about last night? no she said she wanted to stay friends? so continue to be normal and dont make things weird!' i finally put the belt on my baggy jeans and is ready. i grab my pj's that are chilling on the floor and do a similar awkward walk on the creaky floorboards to her bedroom once more. i aggressively shove my clothes into my medium bag, i wonder how it all fits since the bags kinda small but i make it work. i stand there for a second and breath before going back into the living room and sit down next to her while we wait for Lexa to arrive.

'keep your promise and don't make it weird'

After around 10 minutes the doorbell - or the gate bell - rings meaning that either my mum has come and picked me up 4 hours early or Lexa is here. Callia gets up straight away and heads for the door 'she's probably happy Lexa's here so she doesn't have to talk to me' i think as i stand up and slowly follow her. i was happy to see Lexa, i haven't seen any of my friends over the holidays until today and i didn't get a chance to talk to her before hand and now i get to see her for the day! Callia lets her in and we all say hi to each other before Lexa hands us a bag of chips and tim tams to eat, i'm over the moon that we get to eat snacks. i normally snack all the time but Callia doesn't usually snack so we - or more like i - grabbed her birthday M&M's. 'yes! now i don't have to eat her M&M's , god i feel so bad for that' i think as i hold the tim tams and we all walk inside. 

We head to Callia's room and we chat about all sorts of stuff and i start to forget about 'the crush'. we yap and chat in her room for a while and eat the chips and tim tams, we later go out onto the trampoline with Matty and Callia tries to record for a second time. we have fun and joke around like normal, we chatted annoyed Matty and he annoyed us, then it was time for lunch.

for lunch we had left over pizza from last nights dinner, left over pepperoni and Capriccoisa pizza. everything was going good, they where eating, i wasn't really that hungry.

But then Lexa made a joke about something that didn't bother me in the past but for some reason that one joke made me feel strange.