More love songs like 'tek it' and 'lovers rock' continues to play in my headphones while i drive home, my thought's blaring in my head, my heart slowly starting to pick up pace. 'i should have said something, maybe we should have spoken about it? but i promised her to be friends, i can't break a promise!!! what if she was lying? maybe its a joke? but it can't be a joke she legit freaked out after telling me, maybe she's good at acting? wait what am i saying my best friend wouldn't lie to me. omg how long has she liked me? how long has she had the playlist? how did i not notice??? i've never really thought of her like that before??? what do i do? omg i'm so blind how did i not see that she liked me. i'm so stupid, why does she even like me in the first place'.
my thoughts stop as i realise that we're near the doctors, i guess i'd been stuck in my thoughts that i forgot about my appointment. i get the heart monitor put on me and we leave, it kind of hurts and feels strange but i don't care.
When i'm finally home, i'm quiet and slowly walk up to the door with my heavy bag of dirty clothes. i walk through the door and place my bag next to the door in my bedroom, i kneel down and get out my computer, still have my headphones playing the playlist. Celia walks into the room after me, she usually hangs out in here whilst i sit in the 'spare' room. i look up at her with my computer in my hands, 'should i tell her? she has dated people before, but she's not....gay? no i can't tell anyone, that was one of the promises' i stop myself from saying anything and turn to leave. i go to the spear room and take my headphones off, i sit there for a second and get up a story i've been writing. i try writing but all i can think about is what Callia said to me 'it's you, promise me, theres.....a playlist', her words repeat in my head as i write. "so much for writing to take my mind of it heh" i say quietly to myself, why can't i stop thinking about it?
I give in and put the playlist on again on my computer, putting the volume down on 1 so no one can hear it, i don't usually listen to love songs, its not that i don't like them i just prefer to listen to weird songs about video games or some strange band song with a good beat. i put the playlist on shuffle once more, still not looking at the songs on the playlist, i want them to be a surprise, i want to know what she thinks. the more i listen the more i think about how i've acted around her, loud, mean-ish, annoying, crazy, stupid, random joke flirting.
'why does she like me?'
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Lovesick
Romance2 best friends, 1 falls in love, the other unsure. will the situation break their friendship? or will they get together? this is turning out longer then i thought but thats fine UPDATES: every monday
