Dopamine Part 2

Chapter 6: Consequences

Aiah's POV

I jolted awake, my heart pounding as I realized Mikha wasn't next to me.

I checked the time and it was almost midnight, then I stood to check where she might be; she was neither in the bathroom nor the living room.

I searched for my phone baka sakaling she left some message or something, lately ganun kasi, kahit gabi na she will always have something about work.

Ang tagal kong hinanap yung phone ko and I found it sa table sa room ko. I was certain I did not place it here and agad kong naisip that Mikha might have touched or checked it.

I remember the messages I exchanged with Kim. Bakit kinabahan ako bigla?? 

I rushed to open and inspect my phone, the recently opened apps were my call logs and my inbox.

I went outside the living room and sakto Jho was about to enter the unit and ang bungad niya sa akin was, "Oh, akala ko kasama mo si Miks."

And I asked, "What do you mean?"

"Naglakad lakad kami ni Baste kanina and we saw her went in sa cafe sa tawid."

"Jho, I'm so dead," after what she said, I immediately ran pababa sa condo and to the cafe she mentioned.

Just exactly as I was about to enter the cafe, Mikha was in a hurry to leave and it was as if hindi niya ko nakita. For a moment, I caught a glimpse of Kim na palabas rin, and from there, I know, I am really... so... freaking... dead.

With all my might, I tried to run after Mikha, grabbed her, and asked, "Baby, hey, what's wrong?"

"Miks, please. Let's talk," now that we are face to face, I can see the cold gaze in her eyes, natakot ako 'cause it's the first time I've seen her like this.

"I'm sorry Aiah, but we have nothing more to talk about. It's clear to me now."

"Baby, w-what are you talking about?"

"Aiah, I guess we should really just break up." when I heard those words, a chilling silence enveloped between us. My heart raced and my mind scrambled to piece together what she just said.

"Baby, p-please ano ba 'to???"

I tried to grab her hand but she forcefully let go of it and left. I stood there, my heart sinking as she walked away.

My legs got weak making me fall down on my knees. All I was able to do was to hope and pray na all this was just a fucking dream. Parang kanina lang we were just making love and we were so happy.

Sa aking pagkakaupo, I suddenly saw a pair of shoes in front of me and Kim's voice lingered, "Aiah, I'll take you home. Tara na."

My legs trembled as I tried to stand and face her. I tried to keep my cool and asked, "W-what did you tell her?"

"Aiah, let's discuss it in your place," she tried to take my arm but I pushed it away.

"Can you fucking tell me what did you tell her???!!!" I totally lost it and at that point, I did not seem to care about the people who might hear us.

"Kim, o-okay lang kami kanina eh," my tears were streaming down my face and all I wanted was to cry my heart out.

"I'm sorry, Aiah," she said softly, her gaze dropping to the floor, "I.. t-told her that something happened that night."

I felt a strong urge to turn around and walk away from her. Anger has consumed me but something kept me rooted in place.

"B-but Kim, why??"

"Aiah, I'm sorry. She asked me about the truth..."

"...I just told her what really happened."

Ito na yung sinasabi ni Baste na consequence pag hindi ka talaga careful sa actions mo and I couldn't feel anything but... regret. 

While I was facing the girl, ang dami kong gustong sabihin pero I couldn't speak. Hindi ko na alam kung ano pang sasabihin ko sa kanya, I can't blame her cause as what she said, yun nga yung totoo, kahit hindi ko alam if it really is. 

Kahit mag lupasay pa ako dito, even if I beg her to take back what she said, it won't change anything; it won't change the fact that Mikha has already lost her trust in me and that I lost her. The weight of that realization settles in my chest, heavy and suffocating.

"Alam mo nga I find it unfair," I tried to be respectful and gave her the chance to continue kahit sa loob loob ko I just wanted to storm out of her sight. "..ni kahit konti man lang wala ka man lang naalala? Meanwhile, here I am, I couldn't stop thinking about that night... about you."

"Do you think I have time to care about what you feel?" after that, I finally turned and walked away from her. Medyo nakalayo na ako but she made sure I could hear her last words, "I don't mind, Aiah. But, please know that I do care for you, I like you, and hihintayin kita," and that creeped the hell out of me. I couldn't believe ngayon pa niya napili to confess her feelings.

When I reached the unit, Jho was waiting in the living room. At that moment, she didn't even need to ask. She embraced me and let me cry freely.

As I cried on her arms, I pondered— bakit ngayon pa kung kailan okay na??  

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